42 Years old & 7 Days Behind Me

[Gadders]

Hi All.

I've been experiencing ED for roughly 5 years. I've been down the usual root of going to doctors and being checked out. Testosterone is fine, blood pressure is fine etc etc. I never have morning wood or spontaneous erections.

I wouldn't say I'm addicted to porn as i don't sit for hours watching it but I do use it whenever I want to masturbate. This has included whilst at work and I would even stop whilst driving to masturbate whilst watching porn. I would say for the past 5 - 10 year I would masturbate 4-5 times a day. Would you say this is an addiction to porn or masturbation?

I have used Viagra successfully and it works very well for me whenever I have sex.

Anyway I am assuming that the amount of masturbation to porn I've done in the past is the reason for my ED and I've just started my first reboot.

I've just completed a week without any major problems. Started to feel like I want to check my dick is still working but have refrained. Hopefully I can keep it that way. I'm going for 30 days now. :-/

 

[Androg]

Congrats on your 7 days. That's a good start.

Testing just sets you back. Wait until your libido arises normally. If you need more info: http://yourbrainonporn.com/erectile-dysfunction-question

 

[relapse king]

Congrats on your 7 days
Wait it out and let nature take its course. You already know what and where maturbation has lead you so give this reboot a chance and see where it lead you, thats my perspective

 

[Gadders]

This morning was quite tough after waking. Had a whole load of stuff going through my head.

Was trying to convince myself it was fine to have a quick look at something, gave my self an erection (without porn). Then jumped out of bed and had a shower. So I guess today is another victory.

I've been having headaches for the last few days.

Fingers crossed for tomorrow.

 

[LTE]

The first two weeks are the most difficult, just barrel through them without any sexual stimulation whatever. It gets easier in time; it truly does.

 

[rider654321]

Well done Gadders. Hang in there mate. I'm going through a similar stage to you.

 

[Gadders]

Thanks for your replies.

I have only just realised how many triggers there are on TV. Never noticed this before. So I did something pretty rash and cancelled my tv license and threw my Sky Box away. I would have launched the TV away but my son complained about having no xbox when he comes to stay.

This could be another problem, my son has been with me for a week and has one week left. He's a good distraction so him going back to his mums in a week could be a problem.

I think I woke this morning with something resembling morning wood. Nothing too impressive but there was definitely life down there. Something I've not seen for a while. Progress maybe??

 

[rider654321]

Hi Gadders,

Hang in there mate. It's tough but you can do this. Read all the success stories of other who have walked this path before us, and take strength from their courage.

I guess if your not in a relationship and able to have access to sex regularly its going to be more of a challenge, but it can be done even if you have to respect yourself to MO once every few weeks. Just stay strong and away from the porn mate. 

 

[Brooklyn Jerry]

I am not an expert by any means but common sense should tell us the JO a few times evert day just ain't good. I agree with some here that after a while you may have to resort to MO, but just say no to porn.

 

[LTE]

I am not an expert by any means but common sense should tell us the JO a few times evert day just ain't good. I agree with some here that after a while you may have to resort to MO, but just say no to porn.

JMO, I see not masturbating as a key to recovery. If you never masturbate porn ceases to be interesting. If you don't masturbate even inadvertent exposure to erotic materials will not trigger you. Without masturbation porn has ceased to be a problem in my life.

The key to my concept is to realize that sexual satisfaction requires a partner, hopefully a loving and committed partner. Sexual satisfaction requires the exchange of emotional energy and that can't happen when it's just you and Sally Palmer.

BTW, "pressure" doesn't build up over time. It's been quite a while since I ejaculated and there's no discomfort. It does help to limit my thoughts to avoid sexual subjects, but I'm not fretting about it either way.

 

[Gadders]

Day 11:

Today started off ok but I'm gagging to MO, no real urges for porn just MO. I'm convinced now that my addiction was masturbating and porn was just a tool to help me do it. And I've just realised that my increasing need to masturbate was when I was bored, frustrated or needed to sleep.

I can even pinpoint when this started 5 years ago. I had just started seeing a girl who I was besotted with, she was almost everything I was looking for. Albeit her liking for her ex husband. At the time her and her ex husband were continually texting each other and it was nothing to do with the kids. She even mistakenly sent me and email meant for him with things I didn't want to read. This is the point at which I turned to porn. I was always rejected when i tried to do things with her like going out or holidays and of course sex. She took a dislike to some of my sexual tastes which weren't obscure, just not vanilla. Yes I should have left her but I loved her and as we all know it's not that easy. I have no idea why but masturbating to porn helped me cope with the situation. Anyway, we split up 8 months ago and the past is the past. I want this damn PIED thing sorted.

Does anyone think that I need to go to counselling of some form to help with my last relationship or will rebooting be enough. I just though that as my ED and my last relationship are linked, it might help?

Just a rant, that's all.  :-X

 

[LTE]

Regarding the MO urge; keep in mind that it will bring no lasting satisfaction.

 

[Gadders]

We'll I never thought I'd get to 20 days. I'm still having the normal urges to MO but no porn.

Since stopping PMO I've been having headaches and am struggling to get to sleep. I rarely had headaches before and sleeping was an almost instant thing. Are headaches and trouble sleeping a normal symptom?

 

[LTE]

We'll I never thought I'd get to 20 days. I'm still having the normal urges to MO but no porn.

Since stopping PMO I've been having headaches and am struggling to get to sleep. I rarely had headaches before and sleeping was an almost instant thing. Are headaches and trouble sleeping a normal symptom?

The headaches and sleep issues are fairly common. Don't worry, it will go away, probably soon. You've already weathered the roughest part of the process. There will still be moments that are difficult, but as regards the addictive element you've gotten past the worst of it.