I was doing good no fapping for 10+ days then I relapsed and the binge has been going for 3 days all of my free time or so. I was commited and able to see how I want to quit all of porn and how it all works but now I just have these fantasies of acting out on femdom stuff and maybe finding a gf on femdom site to roleplay or be her sub or in chastity and not having sex but being humilaited with her and so on. And something in me just doesnt want to give up fully on that now -cant imagine it - cant imagine like normal sex would ever do . Not really interested as it seems to me . I think this is fully sex,porn obsession and I feel compulsion to binge more.
Ive read a lot of this forum but I cant find many who mention this kind of stuff - because these fantasies seem fine to me ,normal but of course I know its a lie ... Not sure I believe I will dislike this and giving up seems like throwing away something of value.
Ive read a lot of this forum but I cant find many who mention this kind of stuff - because these fantasies seem fine to me ,normal but of course I know its a lie ... Not sure I believe I will dislike this and giving up seems like throwing away something of value.