Aussie_Rebooter
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I haven't had shaking hands,although i get the faster heart rate all the time.Porn excites me so much,i get a huge rush when i start fapping,sometimes i even feel like a fuzzy sensation in my head....it's hard to describe really - almost as if i can feel the dopamine flooding my brain! - this probably sounds heaps weird,but i can compare it to being on MDMA (ecstasy),it's not the same as being on XTC,it's not as strong a feeling - but i really get what you mean about the sense of euphoria...and that's where the issue for me lies.I use it as an escape,so it's not just the "urge" to PMO - when shit goes wrong,i know i can sit at my computer desk and literally lose myself for 10 hours.I don't know about the rest of you,but i don't just mindlessly "fap"...what i mean by that is - i have a very good imagination,so i picture myself in the scene i'm watching - i completely lose myself...it's like a negative-meditative state basically.It really is like a drug for me.
It's crazy how fucked up this addiction can be.
Anyway good luck with your reboot/recovery mate!
It's crazy how fucked up this addiction can be.
Anyway good luck with your reboot/recovery mate!