Hello i have been in and out of this forum for around a year now, I have had good periods of recovery but nothing consistent. since i have recognised my problems with porn i have noticed a increase is quality of life but i have serious low's at times. seems to be a cycle i keep replaying of relapse - depression and anxiety - getting back on it - good times- relapse and repeat. I'm tired of this cycle. my weaknesses are becoming complacent and not keeping up with daily recovery work and i slip. I'm making this journey for me as having a platform to display my thoughts and a place where i can maintain recovery will help me a huge amount.
I am 22 and I'm single and feel like if i don't stop porn completely it will massively effect my work and studies like it did a few years back.I also smoke weed and up until recently had 4 months away from it and felt really good and positive. In those 4 months I had the longest run of abstinence from porn I have ever had,But the past 3 weeks i started smoking again and recovery took a backseat, that is never going to work. recovery from porn AND weed is essential. so i guess i will just be talking about how I'm feeling each day and tracking my progress. i will post once a day if not twice, once in the morning setting my targets for the day and once at night reflecting on the day.
Day One
So this morning i used porn after a night of smoking weed with a few friends. since the increase in weed in the past few weeks I have noticed more anxiety and more risk of me relapsing on porn. i have a lot of work to be doing for my studies and my job and its starting to get in the way as its effecting the health of my mind.
I'm trying a new diet to become more healthy and thinking about getting blood work done to show my nutrient levels. I'm not un healthy or out of shape but i am really conscious of my foods now and my overall health. so along side this diet and regular exersize a healthy mind is what i would like and porn and weed further that goal from my grasps.
my targets for today is to eat good remaining on this diet and to use mindfulness whenever seeing a beautiful women throughout my day or at home scrolling the internet to maintain in recovery. also no weed today after i finish work and no use of porn or edging (instagram Facebook blah blah) i want to be in bed tonight at a reasonable time and reflect on how successful the day was.
Peace.
I am 22 and I'm single and feel like if i don't stop porn completely it will massively effect my work and studies like it did a few years back.I also smoke weed and up until recently had 4 months away from it and felt really good and positive. In those 4 months I had the longest run of abstinence from porn I have ever had,But the past 3 weeks i started smoking again and recovery took a backseat, that is never going to work. recovery from porn AND weed is essential. so i guess i will just be talking about how I'm feeling each day and tracking my progress. i will post once a day if not twice, once in the morning setting my targets for the day and once at night reflecting on the day.
Day One
So this morning i used porn after a night of smoking weed with a few friends. since the increase in weed in the past few weeks I have noticed more anxiety and more risk of me relapsing on porn. i have a lot of work to be doing for my studies and my job and its starting to get in the way as its effecting the health of my mind.
I'm trying a new diet to become more healthy and thinking about getting blood work done to show my nutrient levels. I'm not un healthy or out of shape but i am really conscious of my foods now and my overall health. so along side this diet and regular exersize a healthy mind is what i would like and porn and weed further that goal from my grasps.
my targets for today is to eat good remaining on this diet and to use mindfulness whenever seeing a beautiful women throughout my day or at home scrolling the internet to maintain in recovery. also no weed today after i finish work and no use of porn or edging (instagram Facebook blah blah) i want to be in bed tonight at a reasonable time and reflect on how successful the day was.
Peace.