So....I write this this evening being in a place of complete loss as to what to do. This January will be 6 years no PMO AND no MO. None boys and girls. And when I mean none, I mean none. I remember seeing one of Gabe's video's along time ago and he said porn cannot be an option, and for me it hasn't been. For close to 6 years I have not looked at porn, or anything like it. I've quit TV for multiple stints of over 6 months, one which was closer to a year, I got rid of my smart phone for well over a year and had a flip phone, drastically changed my diet, quit drinking (5 years clean and sober thank you very much) quit playing video games, SEVERELY restricted my time on the internet, the list could go on forever. Essentially, I've completely changed my life, but my dick still don't work! I really want to be clear here because I know someone will be thinking we'll he must be doing X or Y and that is why he hasn't healed yet. I'm telling you, if there is some behavior I'm doing I just don't know what it is. I don't edge, and I'm not up on FB all night, or hardly ever. I don't online date, I don't surf the internet, I eat very healthy and exercise regularly. Also, I've attempted multiple times to rewire with real girl all of which have been unsuccessful. Again, when I say I try to rewire I mean being in a LTR with someone who knows about what's going on and has worked with me dozens of times to help me rewire. And just for clarification, this was after years of no PMO/MO.
I remember when I found YBOP and reading it for the first time. It was the same experience some alcoholics have when they read the Big Book. I read it and I found myself in every story. I started PMOing to the Joy of Sex at about 8 and it was my most prominent addiction throughout my adult life. What's funny, is I didn't even know it was an addiction. Somewhere in the back of my head I knew I had a problem, but ultimately I just thought I was horny. Anyway, after I found the site and started my reboot at around day 55/56 I had withdrawals akin to something you'd see in Trainspotting. I Fn flipped out. Melted down my friends. PMO/MO was such a huge part of my life that my brain just didn't know what the F to do without it. I remained strong however, and that resolve to quit porn 6 years ago is still with me. That said, I need help.
At almost 6 years into this, I still can't have sex. My nervous system is still jacked and I just don't know what to do. I've been to every doctor there is, truly, from western medicine to eastern, all of which say I'm a healthy dude. Fuck...I only wish. So I reach out tonight looking for help from the community. I'm at a loss. I don't know what else I can do. If there is something else I can do, I'll do it. I just don't know what it is.
Full disclosure, if you dig around on yourbrainrebalanced you'll find and old journal of mine that says I was able to have sex and that is true. At about 7 months no PMO/MO my Johnson started to work. Fn amazing. My wife at the time just got into bed and I was hard as the Washington Monument. That's all she had to do was get in bed. For one glorious week I was able to have sex like a normal human, but as so many do on here, I over did it and had sex four times that week. After that fourth time I could feel my brain take a turn. And for the next 7-10 days I went into this super gnarly depression. In trying to combat it I did all of what has been described above and continued to do so but I'm still rocking a softy 5 years later. Help me boys....
Sincerely,
A rebooter true and true still on his journey to success.
I remember when I found YBOP and reading it for the first time. It was the same experience some alcoholics have when they read the Big Book. I read it and I found myself in every story. I started PMOing to the Joy of Sex at about 8 and it was my most prominent addiction throughout my adult life. What's funny, is I didn't even know it was an addiction. Somewhere in the back of my head I knew I had a problem, but ultimately I just thought I was horny. Anyway, after I found the site and started my reboot at around day 55/56 I had withdrawals akin to something you'd see in Trainspotting. I Fn flipped out. Melted down my friends. PMO/MO was such a huge part of my life that my brain just didn't know what the F to do without it. I remained strong however, and that resolve to quit porn 6 years ago is still with me. That said, I need help.
At almost 6 years into this, I still can't have sex. My nervous system is still jacked and I just don't know what to do. I've been to every doctor there is, truly, from western medicine to eastern, all of which say I'm a healthy dude. Fuck...I only wish. So I reach out tonight looking for help from the community. I'm at a loss. I don't know what else I can do. If there is something else I can do, I'll do it. I just don't know what it is.
Full disclosure, if you dig around on yourbrainrebalanced you'll find and old journal of mine that says I was able to have sex and that is true. At about 7 months no PMO/MO my Johnson started to work. Fn amazing. My wife at the time just got into bed and I was hard as the Washington Monument. That's all she had to do was get in bed. For one glorious week I was able to have sex like a normal human, but as so many do on here, I over did it and had sex four times that week. After that fourth time I could feel my brain take a turn. And for the next 7-10 days I went into this super gnarly depression. In trying to combat it I did all of what has been described above and continued to do so but I'm still rocking a softy 5 years later. Help me boys....
Sincerely,
A rebooter true and true still on his journey to success.