Kid - Found out about P browsing my dad's software on a C64
12 - MO on lingerie models in shopping catalogues and my dad's playboy calender's and magazines
18 - MO on internet pictures; both from 'real' woman and 'hentai'.
20 - MO while playing hentai games / watching hentai series collection
21 - Gave up on having a girlfriend
26 - Stopped collecting hentai, but found some new interest in hentai comics on the web and replayed old games
29 - Traded hentai material for hardcore P videos on internet
30 - Played my last hentai game and decided to stop doing that for good.
31 - Started dating, stopped porn. MO once a week in shower.
32 - Got GF, found I had ED, got into sex therapy for a few months and found yourbrainonporn.
33 - at some point educated my therapist about yourbrainonporn, and then decided together with GF to quit therapy and let time heal it.
P free for over a year now. Relapse with MO on old thoughts about once every month. These MO sessions include methods I picked up from hardcore P. Crazy stuff. I happen to see a direct relation to my ED getting worse around the same time I MO in weird ways on weird thoughts.
Over the past year with GF, my ED definitely improved though. From flat lining to rock hard morning wood and streaks of successful attempts at having vanilla sex with GF every day. But this morning we tried twice on morning wood and while going I lost all feeling, get bored and go limp during the act. This was after MO'ing yesterday while my GF was gone during the day. And then this night / morning made for some less fruitful moments in my relationship and I hate it. This reboot is a constant battle. Maybe I take longer, because of trying with my GF, but I feel total absence from O will only hurt my relationship more than having some ED issues in between success, so I keep on going my way with doing a reboot.
Decided I join this forum and keep a journal of some sort and at the same time keep an eye on the whole development within this community. I really must quit the hardcore madness I created in my head and just enjoy my GF and get natural Es and Os... For now the focus is to no longer M on urges. My GF should be the source of O. Not me and certainly not P (thoughts).
12 - MO on lingerie models in shopping catalogues and my dad's playboy calender's and magazines
18 - MO on internet pictures; both from 'real' woman and 'hentai'.
20 - MO while playing hentai games / watching hentai series collection
21 - Gave up on having a girlfriend
26 - Stopped collecting hentai, but found some new interest in hentai comics on the web and replayed old games
29 - Traded hentai material for hardcore P videos on internet
30 - Played my last hentai game and decided to stop doing that for good.
31 - Started dating, stopped porn. MO once a week in shower.
32 - Got GF, found I had ED, got into sex therapy for a few months and found yourbrainonporn.
33 - at some point educated my therapist about yourbrainonporn, and then decided together with GF to quit therapy and let time heal it.
P free for over a year now. Relapse with MO on old thoughts about once every month. These MO sessions include methods I picked up from hardcore P. Crazy stuff. I happen to see a direct relation to my ED getting worse around the same time I MO in weird ways on weird thoughts.
Over the past year with GF, my ED definitely improved though. From flat lining to rock hard morning wood and streaks of successful attempts at having vanilla sex with GF every day. But this morning we tried twice on morning wood and while going I lost all feeling, get bored and go limp during the act. This was after MO'ing yesterday while my GF was gone during the day. And then this night / morning made for some less fruitful moments in my relationship and I hate it. This reboot is a constant battle. Maybe I take longer, because of trying with my GF, but I feel total absence from O will only hurt my relationship more than having some ED issues in between success, so I keep on going my way with doing a reboot.
Decided I join this forum and keep a journal of some sort and at the same time keep an eye on the whole development within this community. I really must quit the hardcore madness I created in my head and just enjoy my GF and get natural Es and Os... For now the focus is to no longer M on urges. My GF should be the source of O. Not me and certainly not P (thoughts).