allthelights
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Day 65 nearing completion, still successful.
Having said that, today was a challenging day. It's not that I was triggered sexually or anything like that but I did get stuck in a feeling of being down/overwhelmed for a big chunk of the day. I hate when I get like that because I feel paralyzed and not present in my body. I think a big reason for it is that I had an item on my to do list to book a work trip. I haven't traveled for work since I started this process and the thought of it is stressful because that is one of the situations in the past where my behaviours would come out in full force. I spun for a good part of the day until I booked the trip, then I steadily came back into myself and felt better as the day went on.
The main thing I did to keep me from doing to hard was to make a list of all the things I had to do, that way I could come back to that as a form of focus. I'd like to have other 'anchoring' strategies for when my mind wants to go on a trip. Anyone have any good suggestions?
The trip will be stressful but I think that I have enough tools to make it successful and I know that I am focused on my goal. I am 100% on board with staying away from PMO. I don't want it in my life and I am not willing to accept it in any form.
Having said that, today was a challenging day. It's not that I was triggered sexually or anything like that but I did get stuck in a feeling of being down/overwhelmed for a big chunk of the day. I hate when I get like that because I feel paralyzed and not present in my body. I think a big reason for it is that I had an item on my to do list to book a work trip. I haven't traveled for work since I started this process and the thought of it is stressful because that is one of the situations in the past where my behaviours would come out in full force. I spun for a good part of the day until I booked the trip, then I steadily came back into myself and felt better as the day went on.
The main thing I did to keep me from doing to hard was to make a list of all the things I had to do, that way I could come back to that as a form of focus. I'd like to have other 'anchoring' strategies for when my mind wants to go on a trip. Anyone have any good suggestions?
The trip will be stressful but I think that I have enough tools to make it successful and I know that I am focused on my goal. I am 100% on board with staying away from PMO. I don't want it in my life and I am not willing to accept it in any form.