Should I reset my counter?

[Triptonicmaph]

I wont do this again but this is what I did last night.

                    I kept scrolling through NSFW subreddit on reddit for hours last night. Did not watch any video or anything. Did not touch myself, nothing like that. I also used one of my hands to cover all the thumbnails of the posts so I wont see any pornographic pics and I just kept scrolling and reading only the words... got a few boners..

Occasionally i ran into some images but they were for milliseconds and I closed them instantaneously. I did this for a while and then I went to sleep.

Ofcourse I had a wet dream that night.

                    I will not do this again and I am sure!

Is this a relapse and should I reset my counter? I really dont wanna start all over a again.

 

[William]

No.  This was unhelpful, but not a relapse.  Avoid it from now on.  We can switch off porn abuse, but that does not mean we do not miss it.  We miss it.  We miss the dopamine high it gave us.  Until, after a few months... we don't.  You have been here since July 7, 2014.  Today you post 5 days clean, in 3 days you will have been here 60 days.  It is time for you to quit playing with your triggers and  commit to getting clean.  That means the hard 90.  You are in danger of becoming a serial relapser.  That is a guy who is cutting back a bit and says he is making progress, as opposed to a guy who is quitting and actually is.  You don't want to be here next year this time, 9-4-15, patting yourself on the back for your 50th 7 day streak.  Trip, it is time for you to step to this side of clean.  It will not be easy, it WILL be hard.  But it is time for you to do it.  Don't lose another second to porn addiction.  You are 5 days in and you miss it.  Everyone misses it at 5 days out, everyone.  If you can get to 90 clean, it becomes very easy.  You need to own your life again.  Don't let porn own it.  That is just sad.  Get clean.  I have absolute confidence you can.

Peace. 

 

[jjhh]

Yeah. Don't be too hard on yourself.
I've done worse, yet managed to stop myself after a moment.
I count that as a accomplisment of sort, so I haven't reset.

It's good to be careful and not play with it. Personally I know that if I saw a full blown P video, I would totally relapse without control.

 

[Triptonicmaph]

No.  This was unhelpful, but not a relapse.  Avoid it from now on.  We can switch off porn abuse, but that does not mean we do not miss it.  We miss it.  We miss the dopamine high it gave us.  Until, after a few months... we don't.  You have been here since July 7, 2014.  Today you post 5 days clean, in 3 days you will have been here 60 days.  It is time for you to quit playing with your triggers and  commit to getting clean.  That means the hard 90.  You are in danger of becoming a serial relapser.  That is a guy who is cutting back a bit and says he is making progress, as opposed to a guy who is quitting and actually is.  You don't want to be here next year this time, 9-4-15, patting yourself on the back for your 50th 7 day streak.  Trip, it is time for you to step to this side of clean.  It will not be easy, it WILL be hard.  But it is time for you to do it.  Don't lose another second to porn addiction.  You are 5 days in and you miss it.  Everyone misses it at 5 days out, everyone.  If you can get to 90 clean, it becomes very easy.  You need to own your life again.  Don't let porn own it.  That is just sad.  Get clean.  I have absolute confidence you can.

Peace. 

Man I owe u for motivating me like this.  You come back in another 85 days and see how I break out of this trap.  When  I do,  I will owe u and the other fapstronauts here for all the inspiration.  Cheer!

 

[Triptonicmaph]

Yeah. Don't be too hard on yourself.
I've done worse, yet managed to stop myself after a moment.
I count that as a accomplisment of sort, so I haven't reset.

It's good to be careful and not play with it. Personally I know that if I saw a full blown P video, I would totally relapse without control.

I will not play with it again. Man I was so so much thinking of relapsing but I raised the middle finger to it.