I was introduced to porn when I was 14 year old. I was shy as a kid. I was not hooked on to it at that point.
During my sophomore years, the addiction started increasing to once a day and my life started to go downhill. I would get angry over small stuffs, fight with friends, would go out less, kept isolated.
This has continued for 4-5 years now. Now I feel so pathetic like something bad would result in or I will fuck up big time real soon. In my college, my peers were the best of all people I met till now. Still I did not have that emotional connection with them as they have among themselves, which I really desire. In social settings, I feel clueless, I almost don't speak anything, just nod along, wishing when can I get out of this, the entire time feeling nervous. Career wise I am doing fairly good, but the connection with people is really missing. I feel empty inside. I have had suicidal thoughts many times over these years. In these years I have rebooted and relapsed a couple time with the longest stretch of 3 weeks. During this time, I had a glimpse of the power of nofap, how it could help me.
I started reboot on 24 Jan 2019 and aiming for the 90 days NoFap. I would report the highs and lows in the NoFap period, occasionally. I have to be back in the game. Wish me luck!
During my sophomore years, the addiction started increasing to once a day and my life started to go downhill. I would get angry over small stuffs, fight with friends, would go out less, kept isolated.
This has continued for 4-5 years now. Now I feel so pathetic like something bad would result in or I will fuck up big time real soon. In my college, my peers were the best of all people I met till now. Still I did not have that emotional connection with them as they have among themselves, which I really desire. In social settings, I feel clueless, I almost don't speak anything, just nod along, wishing when can I get out of this, the entire time feeling nervous. Career wise I am doing fairly good, but the connection with people is really missing. I feel empty inside. I have had suicidal thoughts many times over these years. In these years I have rebooted and relapsed a couple time with the longest stretch of 3 weeks. During this time, I had a glimpse of the power of nofap, how it could help me.
I started reboot on 24 Jan 2019 and aiming for the 90 days NoFap. I would report the highs and lows in the NoFap period, occasionally. I have to be back in the game. Wish me luck!