Hey, I hope everyone is doing okay and managing an inspiring new life without porn.
I am 28 years old and I live in London with my girlfriend. My main hobbies are music, art, literature, football, and sadly recently, internet/ porn.
I am someone who has always demanded a lot from myself ever since I can remember. Sadly my addiction to porn has lead to a lot a lack of passion, focus and a certain feeling of apathy in pursuing these goals.
I have tried so many times to quit, sometimes making it to a 100 a days, and most recently I made it to 54. (It had left me feeling really disheartend with my chances of overcoming this habit.) However I am trying not to put as much emphasise on how far I get on my counter; I wonder whether that will distract from just quitting this thing for good; by living immersing myself in the real world.
Anyway here is my journal for today.
Sadly I used porn today, my trigger was simply feeling bored and a bit tired and lacking focus, feeling a bit depressed. I just wanted to change my mood. Luckily afterwards I decided enough was enough, and wrote a list of things i wanted to achieve today, one of them was signing up to this forum and starting a journal. I am so grateful that I have found this place its giving me confidence i can gain some momentum without porn.
I have a good feeling I can get through this. I am busy person so I should be able to keep on the road.
All the best
I am 28 years old and I live in London with my girlfriend. My main hobbies are music, art, literature, football, and sadly recently, internet/ porn.
I am someone who has always demanded a lot from myself ever since I can remember. Sadly my addiction to porn has lead to a lot a lack of passion, focus and a certain feeling of apathy in pursuing these goals.
I have tried so many times to quit, sometimes making it to a 100 a days, and most recently I made it to 54. (It had left me feeling really disheartend with my chances of overcoming this habit.) However I am trying not to put as much emphasise on how far I get on my counter; I wonder whether that will distract from just quitting this thing for good; by living immersing myself in the real world.
Anyway here is my journal for today.
Sadly I used porn today, my trigger was simply feeling bored and a bit tired and lacking focus, feeling a bit depressed. I just wanted to change my mood. Luckily afterwards I decided enough was enough, and wrote a list of things i wanted to achieve today, one of them was signing up to this forum and starting a journal. I am so grateful that I have found this place its giving me confidence i can gain some momentum without porn.
I have a good feeling I can get through this. I am busy person so I should be able to keep on the road.
All the best