Tempted
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I alread posted here a few months ago about wanting to beat my addiction and since then it has been on and off but ultimately I never won the fight. I always came back to watching some videos "that werent that bad" until I ended up having a horrible binge again. These horrible binges are basicly just me watching porn I feel very bad about afterwards. Another things is, I still have anxiety, I am still single, and univesity is not going too good.
While I have made improvements in my life, namely that I go to the gym more often, I dance biweekly, I deleted a lot of social media to focus more on the important friends and some other things I have yet to beat my porn addiction which I kind of lost sight of until it hit me back full force two days ago.
In my last therapy meeting I exchanged some more ideas with my therapist about the topic, I started meditating again and I plan to be more dedicated to the gym, since I have been slacking a bit the past weeks. My main goal now is to keep myself busy, I have the feeling that mediation really is an important aid in this trying time and I will meditate multiple times a day if I need to.
One very important thingmy therapist told me, that I want to put more focus on, is that all cravings are eventually over. There is that peak moment in which porn might seem irresistable but if I just wait maybe 10-15 more minutes it will be over. Emotions and cravings just come and go and I need to learn how to sit them through.
Just wanted to put this out here, also a little to confirm myself that I am back on it again. I HAVE WATCHED MY LAST PORN! ITS OVER NOW! NO MORE PORN! EVER AGAIN! this is really important because I always had the lingering though of "yeah at some point I will be able to have a healthy relationship with porn, but that will not happen. I can have a healthy sexuality and healthy sex life, but this can happen without consuming porn. I am an addict afterall, it just make sense that I hope things will be fine at some point and I can consume again, but thats not how it works.
While I have made improvements in my life, namely that I go to the gym more often, I dance biweekly, I deleted a lot of social media to focus more on the important friends and some other things I have yet to beat my porn addiction which I kind of lost sight of until it hit me back full force two days ago.
In my last therapy meeting I exchanged some more ideas with my therapist about the topic, I started meditating again and I plan to be more dedicated to the gym, since I have been slacking a bit the past weeks. My main goal now is to keep myself busy, I have the feeling that mediation really is an important aid in this trying time and I will meditate multiple times a day if I need to.
One very important thingmy therapist told me, that I want to put more focus on, is that all cravings are eventually over. There is that peak moment in which porn might seem irresistable but if I just wait maybe 10-15 more minutes it will be over. Emotions and cravings just come and go and I need to learn how to sit them through.
Just wanted to put this out here, also a little to confirm myself that I am back on it again. I HAVE WATCHED MY LAST PORN! ITS OVER NOW! NO MORE PORN! EVER AGAIN! this is really important because I always had the lingering though of "yeah at some point I will be able to have a healthy relationship with porn, but that will not happen. I can have a healthy sexuality and healthy sex life, but this can happen without consuming porn. I am an addict afterall, it just make sense that I hope things will be fine at some point and I can consume again, but thats not how it works.