15-24 Addicted to Masturbastion and Porn for Nearly a Decade

[westcoaststar007]

I am a grad student and Ihave made many positive changes in life over the last few years. However, one habit I've never been able to kick is porn and masturbation. It's against my personal integrity and every time I do it, it takes a shot at me and the shame I feel is tough. I try to rationalize it by believing masturbation is healthy and porn is ok. that might be okay for some but this habit takes a toll on me so hence my desire to do something about it. I will try to update my page regularly. I want to make it to end of the year December 31,2014 without porn and masturbation.

Good luck to all!

 

[qrayzHD]

Good luck and see you around.

 

[noises1990]

Hey there man! Welcome to the good side of the internet! If you haven't read the articles on YBOP (www.yourbrainonporn.com I suggest you take a look, I'm sure you're gonna find some awesome tips and tricks to help you along the way!
Also, you can watch Gabe's videos, they're highly informational for ... our issue: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCaEqbNJURD6ChROqueUdNuA

It's good that you've already set an actual Goal! Always keep it in your mind and remember yourself the reasons you want to quit PMO for... This will help you through the tougher times... Don't be fooled, it's not gonna be an easy road but it pays off in the end..

Stay strong! Stay confident!

 

[westcoaststar007]

Thanks for the boost guys! I have been checking out some of those videos. Yeah, it's been an issue I push to the side. At times life has sucked when Im stressed, lonely, anxious and I used to PMO, and even when life is great, I tend to PMO (it's paradoxical) as a way of celebrating. So it's bad on both ends for me. I need to find better coping mechanisms for dealing with tough times and find better ways to celebrate When things are good school and life, I feel like nothing can take me off track so why not enjoy porn That's been my thinking which obviously has messed me up. I have a beautiful girl I'm dating and I couldn't finish....was disappointing. Longest I've gone is a month. But I've noticed that a lot of things in life spiraled down when I got addicted, things are good now but still as a future professional and with my personal beliefs, the shame bites at me. I understand everyone is different and for some it could be ok but def not for me. So here's to day a successful day 2 8)

 

[westcoaststar007]

Hey there man! Welcome to the good side of the internet! If you haven't read the articles on YBOP (www.yourbrainonporn.com I suggest you take a look, I'm sure you're gonna find some awesome tips and tricks to help you along the way!
Also, you can watch Gabe's videos, they're highly informational for ... our issue: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCaEqbNJURD6ChROqueUdNuA

It's good that you've already set an actual Goal! Always keep it in your mind and remember yourself the reasons you want to quit PMO for... This will help you through the tougher times... Don't be fooled, it's not gonna be an easy road but it pays off in the end..

Stay strong! Stay confident!

What have been your most difficult moments up to day 90? How have you dealt with triggers?

 

[noises1990]

Well didnt have a real problem with triggers. No hardcore urges here! Before these 90 days i was goin on other 40 and MO'ed when my grandfather died and broke up with my gf. So I guess sadness is a trigger though.

Biggest difficulties I would say, well the anxiety, depression and panic attacks. Those were the real challenges. Oh the flatline also scared me a lot. Still in the flatline I guess, and not wanting sex or feeling indifferent towards it sucks pretty bad.

It s been hard and I think it s gonna be hard again through times, but PMO is not the solution to life's ups and downs!

 

[jjhh]

Hi there.

What have been your most difficult moments up to day 90? How have you dealt with triggers?

While this wasn't directed to me, just a word of warning: day 3-5 are propably the worst! Might wanna keep your PC closed. Fasting might help too, hunger overrides horniness.
From there it gets a bit easier atleast it did for me, so hang in there. Once you start noticing some positive effects, use them for your motivation.
Good luck.

 

[sempervirilis]

Very cool my man, welcome. Feel the same way regarding how porn / masturbation makes you feel. For me it's just simply a negative experience, never felt good about it afterwards, and the negative physiologically aspects just make it that much worse.

You are on a very good path with this one, look forward to seeing your progress.

 

[westcoaststar007]

Very cool my man, welcome. Feel the same way regarding how porn / masturbation makes you feel. For me it's just simply a negative experience, never felt good about it afterwards, and the negative physiologically aspects just make it that much worse.

You are on a very good path with this one, look forward to seeing your progress.

Yeah, it's just negative but it feels sooo good for those couple minutes and the rush of checking out those tabs. I remember when I went off to dorms, I felt great that I was finally able to use porn anytime anyday. It def is like a drug, because I give in to the urges often. Thanks man!

Hi there.
While this wasn't directed to me, just a word of warning: day 3-5 are propably the worst! Might wanna keep your PC closed. Fasting might help too, hunger overrides horniness.
From there it gets a bit easier atleast it did for me, so hang in there. Once you start noticing some positive effects, use them for your motivation.
Good luck.

Thats good to hear. Yes, this past week I got to day 5 and relapsed. I realized it is an addiction. Because during those couple minutes, the insticts and urges just took over. I'm on day 3 now.

Well didnt have a real problem with triggers. No hardcore urges here! Before these 90 days i was goin on other 40 and MO'ed when my grandfather died and broke up with my gf. So I guess sadness is a trigger though.

Biggest difficulties I would say, well the anxiety, depression and panic attacks. Those were the real challenges. Oh the flatline also scared me a lot. Still in the flatline I guess, and not wanting sex or feeling indifferent towards it sucks pretty bad.

It s been hard and I think it s gonna be hard again through times, but PMO is not the solution to life's ups and downs!

Did the anxiety, panic attacks get worse with no PMO, and did that last or fade? I remember having panic attacks shame and anxiety after about 2 years into everyday porn and masturbation. It's minor issue now but yeah, I agree it's def not the solution. I watched that video where they talked about boredom, loneliness, anxiety, stress, tiredness being triggers. Stress from sadness and loneliness and stress from grad school especially are my triggers, also anxiety at times. Heres to day 3 I guess it's not going to be easy, what I would do to just watch some good stuff and PMO right now haha.

 

[westcoaststar007]

I'm feeling down in mood. I'm studying, stressed, and here would be the time to watch some videos and enjoy the moment. But I understand now that is feeding the habit so I will keep going. In my decade of porn use and masturbation, I had one streak of 30 and a few streaks of 1 week. This time, I hope to make it much further and a lifestyle.

 

[westcoaststar007]

Biggest test last night thus far. I went to a bodybuilding page saw guys talking about hot chicks and then had urge to google naked pics and masturbate. But I beat the urge and closed the window, because I thought about how bad I would feel after. But in that moment, it was so strong, all that was on mind to search for videos and PMO.

So 4 days done, heres to day 5, cheers!

 

[qrayzHD]

That's strength, well done. 8)

 

[westcoaststar007]

Thanks haha its not been easy though. Woke up in morning with bad morning wood and first reaction instict was to start stroking it. Turned on phone looked for pics of hot girls on instagram, them remembered why I'm trying to stop in first place and put my phone down. I always seem to brush it aside no big deal, but this is a serious addiction. First week has been rough, day 6 today.

 

[noises1990]

Well, anxiety/panic attacks actually started idk, around day 55-65 or so. No pmo will have some withdrawal symptoms ... But they ve passed now. Still get some weird anxiety sometimes but it s not that bad anymore

 

[qrayzHD]

When you hit flatline you will lose that urge to M whenever you get morning wood, some guys even lose morning wood when in a flatline.

 

[westcoaststar007]

thats good to hear. When does a flatline usually happen? And what about when it goes away, do the urges return again with same force? or does it get easier?

 

[qrayzHD]

My flatline started sometime in the 1st week and i'm still in it, a flatline happens at random so there is no way to tell when it will happen. Coincidentally this morning i woke up with the strongest morning wood i've ever had but because of my FL i didn't have that urge to MO although i did have sexual thoughts. From what i've read when you come out of a FL you can sometimes feel overly confident and let your guard down, the only way to know if you are going to lose that urge to PMO is if you try it yourself, good luck 

 

[westcoaststar007]

Ok that makes sense. Yea its like a lose lose with the moods. Bad mood= relapse. Overconfident mood= relapse because nothing can bring me down. I've made it one week but wanna keep it going now regardless of good/bad effects. I have major blueballs now though. haha. good luck man!

 

[westcoaststar007]

I messed up, not with porn but with masturbation. A fried told me she wants to workout with me and then study later tmrw night. And the thoughts just went to my head. I knew right away what the end would be but I kept trying to say it would be fine. I didn't watch porn. I just looked at a magazine (non-nude but hot) and masturbated.

On the bright side, it's the first time in more than 5+ years that I've masturbated to an orgasm without watching a hardcore porn clip.

But, I need to gear up and take this next streak longer no PMO. No moral victories.

 

[westcoaststar007]

So it's been about 2 weeks since I've PMO'd and a week since MO without Porn once so it's progress but I want to really continue this streak. I now realize how helpful porn and PMO has been to get that dopamine hit to cope with stress or tough times in school/work like exam stress or feeling bad about grades. I don't have cravings unless I think about it and I have to change thoughts when the scenes play through my head. Anyway, I'd say I haven't noticed any positives yet but I know a week or two is nothing compared to how long my mind has been conditioned to PMO.