Many times i relapsed but again started.

[Do or die]

Day 2 at march 31
day 1 completed. this timme reboot is fixed
Relapsed one time

 

[Do or die]

Relapsed again.
Stopped again.
Relapsed again.
Now days my life is like this.
I am don't doing it seriously.
I am thinking that i don't want to reboot.
I need to be serious about my problems.
1. Social anexity
2. Depression
3, loss of carrier
4, bad health

I am taking it likely but this are so serious issue.
I thinking now that why i am relapsing so much. Whats the problem is there.
From now i am not posting daily on this site. I just know that i closed porn addiction from my life.

 

[pruthukkc]

I know it's painful but don't lose hope my friend.

 

[Do or die]

Day 1
Headache from morning .
God please save me. Your child is in dark . please send the light towards me

 

[pruthukkc]

He is always with you just do it believe in yourself man!

 

[Do or die]

Day 2
Today i did:
10 min Meditation
I am busy in interacting with people whole day.
Keeping myself busy.

 

[Do or die]

Day 3
Having headache from morning.
Yesterday night i have strong urges but i not relapsed because of slow Internet. Thanks god

 

[Do or die]

Relapsed

 

[Do or die]

4 April 2019
first day of new reboot. yesterday night i watched the porn because of headache . i know porn is not an solution to this but i relapsed.
so from today i begin it .
at this stage all thinks that reboot is impossible. but i need to see towards successful rebooters who did it.
now i am focusing on day1.
myplan :
4 april - Day 1
8 april- Day 5
13 april - Day 10

changes in my daily routine to make reboot possible.
wakeup at 5 am.
do daily exercise.
keeping myself busy whole day.

 

[Do or die]

I am completed day 1 successfully. Now going to take all things back that i missed because of porn addiction.

 

[J01]

Looking forward to hearing about day 2 tomorrow-press on friend.

 

[Do or die]

Thanks jixu.
I am at Day 2
Today i woke up at 5 am and did exercise . after that i did my study. Because my exams are near. So now wishing for a good success.

 

[Do or die]

2 day's completed and now at 3rd day.
Day 3
Did meditation today. Meditation makes my mind cool.

 

[Do or die]

3 days completed.
Day 4
Wet dream today. I know this is withdrawal symptom. I am going to be focused only on reboot. Not afraid of urges.
Now i know my triggers well and my performance till now in this reboot is very well. Now i am going to hit a new record of day 5 tomorrow .

 

[pruthukkc]

Be strong man!

 

[Do or die]

Be strong man!

Yes. Now i am strong and know all my weaknesses.

 

[Do or die]

My 5 days goal is completed.

Day 5
Wet dream today. Two wet dreams in two days. Because of leaving this addiction i have porn dreams. And because of it there are wet dreams. I need to change my porn included thinking also. I need to be powerful.

 

[Do or die]

Wet dream leads to relapse in my case .i have two wet dreams in a row because of it i don't controlled my self andi am relapsed.

 

[Do or die]

Today i relapsed three times very baldly. I never relapsed like this.

 

[Do or die]

I remembered one thing i prepared for exams one month and at the day of exam i has a wet dream. And because of that i tired whole day. You need not only to be strong in mind but strong body also needs in reboot.
My 90 days challenge  plan from today:

Day 1 @12 April
Do rest today. Because the body is recovering itself from three relapse.

Day 2 @13 April
Wakeup at 5:00 am daily morning. Because this avoid nightfalls.
Do exercise. And start work.



Day 3 @14 April  to Day 10 @ 21April
Wakeup at 5 am regularly. Don't miss any day. Till reaching day 10.

Day 11 at 22 April to
Day 20 at 1may
Wake up early at 5 am. Don't miss any day. Now at main face of reboot. Tricky urges are their. Be careful about it.

Day 21 at 29 April to
Day 30 @ 7 May
30 days target is completed successfully.

Day 60 at 7 June
Successfully recovered whole body and rebooted partially. I write my journal when reach this goal.

Day 90 at 7 July
Challenge completed. Don't stop here start a new challenge of 180 days.

Day 120 at 7 August 2019
Near to achieve goal

Day 150 at 7 September
30 days remained to complete 180,

Day 180 at 7 October