Hi all, the title of my journal refers to the scale of human consciousness in Dr. David Hawkins' classic book Power vs Force. As I've been working on raising my consciousness, many aspects of my life have fallen into place and I truly am happier and more in control of things than I ever have been. Except for one area - the dreaded porn! This, along with junk food and alcohol, and a bit of social anxiety, are the last remaining weeds that must be removed from my otherwise starting-to-be excellent life.
I'm in my mid-30s and have attempted many reboots in the past. My best results have been around 30-45 days. I have a bad habit of binging when I relapse instead of trying to pick myself up. Just ended a 3 week streak with another binge but am determined to pick myself up this time and continue on!
Day 1
I really do feel great, even though I was up until 1.30am looking at trash. Not even tired despite the lack of sleep. This consciousness stuff is amazing. No real cravings to speak of; perhaps a bit of curiosity about looking at some loose ends from last night but nothing I can't resist at the moment. I really do feel like everything is just going to get better and better from here.
I'm in my mid-30s and have attempted many reboots in the past. My best results have been around 30-45 days. I have a bad habit of binging when I relapse instead of trying to pick myself up. Just ended a 3 week streak with another binge but am determined to pick myself up this time and continue on!
Day 1
I really do feel great, even though I was up until 1.30am looking at trash. Not even tired despite the lack of sleep. This consciousness stuff is amazing. No real cravings to speak of; perhaps a bit of curiosity about looking at some loose ends from last night but nothing I can't resist at the moment. I really do feel like everything is just going to get better and better from here.