WoundedSparrow
Active Member
The worst part of porn addiction is the fact that it seems like you forget everything you learned during a reboot when you relapse. I wrote a bit ago about going 5 weeks PMO free and since my last relapse, it's gotten worse. I went from PMO once or twice a week while trying to get back on the wagon to 3 times PMO this week alone. The urges feel more acute and harder to resist for some reason. I remember how happy and successful I felt during my last reboot attempt and I know what to do to stop, but my brain won't let me. It's like I've forgotten everything. When you relapse, it crushes your willpower and makes it easier to relapse again and again. You forget things you know deep down you still remember you need to do. How do you muster up the willpower to climb back on the wagon immediately after falling off? It's the one thing I've never been able to do. God knows when I'll be able to find it in me to attempt another reboot. It's like those 5 weeks never happened and I've learned nothing.