GingerSnap
Member
I posted a few times on here but this is my first journal entry I will do my best to post weekly not to flood the forum with info that may not be helpful to myself or anyone else looking to reboot
I am 38 and watched porn since the age of 11. I've lived the the advancements in technology that involved porn. From the age of magazines and VHS tapes to the high speed VR 4K that's available now. There was one point where I was very emotionally attached to DVDs I owned.
Until 2 or 3yrs ago I suffered severe Delayed Ejaculation. I want to experience life w/o porn being a part of it. The last few months I did some serious reflection as far as what porn has done to my brain which I thought wasn't a big deal for a long time.
Today I was 3 weeks porn free. The word was is in the previous sentence because today I relapsed. It was more for curiosity as opposed to seeking stimulation or arousal. It was leak of nude pics a certain celebrity and came across a leak of a video. I felt a little aroused but I know enough that even looking hurts my reboot.
Of course the addictive voice said go ahead look at it. I have no desire to MO. As I write this yesterday I had sex with my GF of 5 years. Since then I'm flatlined.
One thing about this reboot that concerns me is the surge of ladido that some guys experience at some point. I already love sex and women. What if it comes at me like a bullet while I'm with my gf but it maybe too much for her.
I'm not going to be hard on myself for relapsing to pics and a short clip. I am aware that the temptations to use curiosity as an excuse are stronger than I may have thought.
I will post around this time of week on a regular basis to keep track of my progress or hopefully not regress.
I am 38 and watched porn since the age of 11. I've lived the the advancements in technology that involved porn. From the age of magazines and VHS tapes to the high speed VR 4K that's available now. There was one point where I was very emotionally attached to DVDs I owned.
Until 2 or 3yrs ago I suffered severe Delayed Ejaculation. I want to experience life w/o porn being a part of it. The last few months I did some serious reflection as far as what porn has done to my brain which I thought wasn't a big deal for a long time.
Today I was 3 weeks porn free. The word was is in the previous sentence because today I relapsed. It was more for curiosity as opposed to seeking stimulation or arousal. It was leak of nude pics a certain celebrity and came across a leak of a video. I felt a little aroused but I know enough that even looking hurts my reboot.
Of course the addictive voice said go ahead look at it. I have no desire to MO. As I write this yesterday I had sex with my GF of 5 years. Since then I'm flatlined.
One thing about this reboot that concerns me is the surge of ladido that some guys experience at some point. I already love sex and women. What if it comes at me like a bullet while I'm with my gf but it maybe too much for her.
I'm not going to be hard on myself for relapsing to pics and a short clip. I am aware that the temptations to use curiosity as an excuse are stronger than I may have thought.
I will post around this time of week on a regular basis to keep track of my progress or hopefully not regress.