It's not just me

[Malauss?ne]

Hi everyone, I am  20 years old, I am student and I?m from Italy and I have a girlfriend. I have chosen this title because it depicts my situation and my goals. I do have a porn addiction and I want to quit form it. I know it would be hard for me and I am scared to be disappointed of myself. It?s not just me, I am not alone. I am not the only one and I am not doing this just for myself. It?s for her too, and all people I love. I want them to see a self-reliant man, as just few days ago my beloved asked me. And she did was serious. But I was hiding from myself, hiding from the truth and the weight of a real problem.  An addiction that makes me unfaithful to her and makes me feel terrible when I tell her she?s the only I love and like. Which is the truth in my soul but is also a shadow on these words. Sound a bit rhetoric ya? But it?s the truth. I want to be free, I want to make all the things I can and learn and work and relax and sleep in the same time that in last months I wasted  on porn sites. I am going to see her in a few days and it will be our last time in same place before her departure to another country. I think she would be disappointed knowing the whole story about me when we are not together. Last time we met I have been just an idiot when we had sex. I had watched videos on porn sites to find new positions but this mad me full of anxiety and unconfident and for the first time I thought I had not the full control of me. It was awful . Porn is not real. And love and sex can (only) live without it. I want to be free, as I said. Just like when I am with her, making my special one feel well as she deserves. I am writing her at 4 in the morning also for here. Maybe one day I will tell her about this post and how easy  was to write it and how difficult to make it real. I can live without porn. I need to liberate me from it to live as a normal person. I want to see and count my achievements and write about my problem and my feelings in passing it by, and be useful to other people like me if I can.
So, I am at the start of a new road. I want to thank all the people that spend time to make this site and forum live and grow and work. Thanks to the admins and webmasters and members. I will tell you about my path and the beautiful and forgotten things that I am sure I will find on it.

 

[Gabe Deem]

@ Masaussene

Hi everyone, I am  20 years old, I am student and I?m from Italy

Welcome to the Nation my man. I have always wanted to visit Italy. Did you happen to find this site through this article that came out today in Italy featuring YourBrainOnPorn.com?

http://www.vice.com/it/read/intervista-gary-wilson-porno-sesso-694

I know it would be hard for me and I am scared to be disappointed of myself. It?s not just me, I am not alone.

It will more than likely be very hard, but you are NOT alone. We are all in this together, and the fine people on this site can provide insight and encouragement that you need. The reboot process may not be easy but it is certainly worth it I promise you that.

I encourage you to watch the informational videos posted on the front page of this site, and read the sticky threads that are at the top of each forum section.

Hope the best for you. Much love

 

[Malauss?ne]

Hi again! Thank you so much for your answer.I wasn't expecting it in such a short time and thank you for reading my post with attention. It really helps me. Yes I found out the forum via the article of the "Vice" website that a friend liked on facebok, then I watched the main video on "Yourbrainonporn" about the actual achievements in the scientific research. Your video on the same site was so helpful and encouraging too. I think I have been lucky to discover that post on fb. I red the interview to Gary Wilson and I was very scared and impressed about the porn addiction effects on brain in particular on the levls of dopamine and the grey matter and the memory. This really scared me and - as I said - I absolutely want to have my own normal sexual behaviour. Nothing that may helps me about it and my relationship is in porn. So, thanks again I have been keeping this secret for a too long time. All is fine in my second day but it's too early to talk about it. By the way I am positive: I just wanna think about the benefits I will
receive and fill the gap that a bad abitude is leaving. I think it's the right occasion to play my musical instrument back again.
Bye for now, and yeah Italy is still beautiful!

 

[Viper]

I have had the good fortune of visiting Italy.
Great country on many levels and I recommend anyone to go.
As for your situation, you're not the only one and it's good you set up this account
to communicate with others just like you.
Best to recognize and admit you have a problem and then work towards resolving it.
Won't be easy but it can be beaten. You have your whole life ahead of you and
sometimes you don't know what you got til' it's gone.
When I started losing my drive to have sex, I thought it was the end of me.
Certainly felt that way until I did some internet research that lead me here.
Go to the forums of your age range and you'll see others like you that you can relate
to.