achilles heel
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And it's a two digit number of days clean, congratulations! You will have to deal with difficult situation and it was a big success to not fall back into the porn trap to escape. Keep improving!
Hang in there, the best is yet to come
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BlueHeronFan
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achilles heel said:
I want to second that congratulations! Getting through a triggering moment without going back to porn is a big deal. It teaches your brain that you don't need porn to deal with bad feelings. Every time you do that, you learn even better that you don't need porn to cope.
You're trying and that is good enough! Never stop trying. The only way to fail at this is to give up.
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Day 1
Today was a lesson, I am not sure if it was the fact that i had tried so hard at lunch not look at porn or the fact that when i came home i started cooking new food (my mother makes cooking food much more easier than it is) or that i had flashbacks or a combination of all three.
Previously i would enter a cycle of relapsing and spend hours in front of a computer but this time that did not happen
I am happy that i reached my goal of 9 days and even though i feel like i let myself down, that i am failure and a burden to the one reading this i am still progressing
Today was a lesson, I am not sure if it was the fact that i had tried so hard at lunch not look at porn or the fact that when i came home i started cooking new food (my mother makes cooking food much more easier than it is) or that i had flashbacks or a combination of all three.
Previously i would enter a cycle of relapsing and spend hours in front of a computer but this time that did not happen
I am happy that i reached my goal of 9 days and even though i feel like i let myself down, that i am failure and a burden to the one reading this i am still progressing
BlueHeronFan
Respected Member
Whenever you learn and then make a change, you are still on track. Finding weaknesses in our strategy and messing up occasionally is all a part of beating addiction.
It's fair to feel like you let yourself down. That's a feeling that will help you to try harder next time, and it's a sign that you're really trying to take care of yourself and live a better life. Don't waste too much time feeling like a failure though, or even like a burden. We're all here to get better, and we're all doing it at our own pace. You're only a burden if you are getting in the way of other people's progress, and that is definitely not something that you are doing.
Keep on going! Maybe the next time is 10 days!
It's fair to feel like you let yourself down. That's a feeling that will help you to try harder next time, and it's a sign that you're really trying to take care of yourself and live a better life. Don't waste too much time feeling like a failure though, or even like a burden. We're all here to get better, and we're all doing it at our own pace. You're only a burden if you are getting in the way of other people's progress, and that is definitely not something that you are doing.
Keep on going! Maybe the next time is 10 days!
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Blueheronfan you are AWESOME! Thank you ;D
Day 2
Today was a victory
Had some flash backs but instead of using the computer anymore i decided to go home and take a nap instead
Went around the forum and tried to support as many people as i could, that made me happy today
;DDay 2
Today was a victory
Had some flash backs but instead of using the computer anymore i decided to go home and take a nap instead
Went around the forum and tried to support as many people as i could, that made me happy today
Non-Dual Adventurer
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Great job! Yes napping and serving others are things that help me too. Keep on truckin', you're doing great!
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pichaelthompson
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The positivity you spread is contagious, it inspires me and others to do the same thing keep it up!
keep it up!BlueHeronFan
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Awesome stuff! I know trying to help other with their recovery really helps me with mine too.
Keep doing what you're doing: you're making progress!
Keep doing what you're doing: you're making progress!
achilles heel
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Thank you for all that you do for me said:I am happy that i reached my goal of 9 days and even though i feel like i let myself down, that i am failure and a burden to the one reading this i am still progressing
You're not a failure because of relapsing. This is an addiction, a disease. You are not able to overcome it by willpower, but by strategies and changes in life. This will work step by step. Your positive attitude and support are amazing, thank you for that and try to treat yourself the same way. You're an important and helpful member to this community and need consistency and patience to be successful. I know you can make it, start with small steps and goals again!
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Day 7
Today was a victory 8)
These few days i decided to drastically reduce my internet time and do other activities for example playing outside with my friends and spending more time with my younger brothers. Today i remember how i spent a half hour laughing with them. There were times my brain was telling me to continue using the computer even though i was mentally exhausted by i decided to reply "whatever i can manage today is enough" these words have kept me sane and helped me to listen to my body when it is not able to do anymore
What am I grateful for today? My best part of my day is definitvely this morning since i spent some quality time with my two brothers ;D ;D
Today was a victory 8)
These few days i decided to drastically reduce my internet time and do other activities for example playing outside with my friends and spending more time with my younger brothers. Today i remember how i spent a half hour laughing with them. There were times my brain was telling me to continue using the computer even though i was mentally exhausted by i decided to reply "whatever i can manage today is enough" these words have kept me sane and helped me to listen to my body when it is not able to do anymore
What am I grateful for today? My best part of my day is definitvely this morning since i spent some quality time with my two brothers ;D ;D
BlueHeronFan
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That's awesome! Glad to hear the good report!
I think it's a great idea to have a standard reply for your brain sometimes. I know my mind gets obsessed about not missing out on seeing an attractive woman walking by, but I know I don't have to ogle and that it will be okay for me and her if I just let her be. When my mind starts getting obsessive, I just say "It doesn't matter," so my mind can let it go.
Keep going!
I think it's a great idea to have a standard reply for your brain sometimes. I know my mind gets obsessed about not missing out on seeing an attractive woman walking by, but I know I don't have to ogle and that it will be okay for me and her if I just let her be. When my mind starts getting obsessive, I just say "It doesn't matter," so my mind can let it go.
Keep going!
Non-Dual Adventurer
Active Member
That's great stuff man! I'm going to try and read more while I'm cutting my screen time. Feels good to be away from them for a while.
pichaelthompson
Active Member
That sounds like a great day! Whenever I can just get out of the house and enjoy the simple pleasures of life, I can literally feel my brain slowing down and be more at peace. It's very refreshing, and serves as a reminder that these things: quality time with others, will ALWAYS be more important than getting your fix on the computer. Best of luck as you continue your journey, you have my full support!
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You guys mean a lot more to me than you realize, all of you
Day 10
Today was a victory 8)
It had been tougher than the previous days i started having flash backs from the last time i had a relapse and there was this voice telling me, well you remember it was enjoyable why not give it a trial and then todays wheather is soooooooooooooooooooo hot but then i decided to go out and meet some friends, spread some kindness in the forum and the urge slowly started going away. I felt my BIGGEST trigger was boredom today i had finished watching my favourite tv show and i was thinking of replacing it with porn but luckily it was a thought and we all have negative thoughts from time to time. I am try to argue with the negative thoughts but the most effective thing i have found out was it is best to go and talk to someone
Day 10
Today was a victory 8)
It had been tougher than the previous days i started having flash backs from the last time i had a relapse and there was this voice telling me, well you remember it was enjoyable why not give it a trial and then todays wheather is soooooooooooooooooooo hot but then i decided to go out and meet some friends, spread some kindness in the forum and the urge slowly started going away. I felt my BIGGEST trigger was boredom today i had finished watching my favourite tv show and i was thinking of replacing it with porn but luckily it was a thought and we all have negative thoughts from time to time. I am try to argue with the negative thoughts but the most effective thing i have found out was it is best to go and talk to someone
achilles heel
Well-Known Member
A two digit number of days again, look at your progress, if you made it there twice, you can make it even further! Use your positive attitude for yourself and believe in yourself, I know you can and will do it!
Thank you for all that you do for me said:You guys mean a lot more to me than you realize, all of you
Day 10
Today was a victory 8)
It had been tougher than the previous days i started having flash backs from the last time i had a relapse and there was this voice telling me, well you remember it was enjoyable why not give it a trial and then todays wheather is soooooooooooooooooooo hot but then i decided to go out and meet some friends, spread some kindness in the forum and the urge slowly started going away. I felt my BIGGEST trigger was boredom today i had finished watching my favourite tv show and i was thinking of replacing it with porn but luckily it was a thought and we all have negative thoughts from time to time. I am try to argue with the negative thoughts but the most effective thing i have found out was it is best to go and talk to someone
nice dude!! You're doing well, double digitsssss
BlueHeronFan
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Thank you for all that you do for me said:You guys mean a lot more to me than you realize, all of you
Day 10
Today was a victory 8)
It had been tougher than the previous days i started having flash backs from the last time i had a relapse and there was this voice telling me, well you remember it was enjoyable why not give it a trial and then todays wheather is soooooooooooooooooooo hot but then i decided to go out and meet some friends, spread some kindness in the forum and the urge slowly started going away. I felt my BIGGEST trigger was boredom today i had finished watching my favourite tv show and i was thinking of replacing it with porn but luckily it was a thought and we all have negative thoughts from time to time. I am try to argue with the negative thoughts but the most effective thing i have found out was it is best to go and talk to someone
That's awesome! It's so great that you can be aware of your thoughts and recognize that there's a part of you that wants to relapse and that you choose not to anyway. That's a lot of good self-awareness and self-control.
Stay strong!
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Day 1
In the past week i have been in rumania and my father gave me access to his phone- you can guess what happened after Felt bored today but i was playing fifa and that kept me occupied
I am going back home on Tuesday and can't wait to meet my friends and family
Family is not who's blood is in you, is who you love and who loves you.?- Jakie Chan I am glad to have some family here
In the past week i have been in rumania and my father gave me access to his phone- you can guess what happened after
Felt bored today but i was playing fifa and that kept me occupied I am going back home on Tuesday and can't wait to meet my friends and family
Family is not who's blood is in you, is who you love and who loves you.?- Jakie Chan I am glad to have some family here
achilles heel
Well-Known Member
Get back on track again, it's about not giving up!
BlueHeronFan
Respected Member
Sorry to hear you ran into a little trouble, but I think it will be helpful to be back home and back in a sort of routine. I know I always feel more vulnerable when I'm traveling or doing something else that interrupts my self-defensive habits.
Tomorrow is a new day! Keep on keeping on!
Tomorrow is a new day! Keep on keeping on!