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[mr_redstar]

Actually I relapsed last weekend for the first time since I started the post..

It was a bad time. My wife is on period and in the morning I woke up but stayed in bed to browse all the shits.
It was damn twitter again.

As you guys suggested, I will block twitter with my web protector now.
Another lesson to learn here is I should get damn out of bed when I'm awake. It's a strong trigger if I browse the internet in the morning.

I won't restart the counter, but put a mark on the calendar. Stay clean!

 

[Lero]

Actually I relapsed last weekend for the first time since I started the post..

It was a bad time. My wife is on period and in the morning I woke up but stayed in bed to browse all the shits.
It was damn twitter again.

As you guys suggested, I will block twitter with my web protector now.
Another lesson to learn here is I should get damn out of bed when I'm awake. It's a strong trigger if I browse the internet in the morning.

I won't restart the counter, but put a mark on the calendar. Stay clean!

A relapse sucks, of course, but at the same time it's an opportunity to examine the situation and see what you did wrong. Actually, I even see some relapses as "necessary" because without them, we cannot learn what to do and what to avoid. As much as those relapses suck, they teach us. There is no growth without obstacles.

 

[mr_redstar]

I'm developing a bad habit, and I will write it down here to avoid it happening again.

There is a voice in my brain saying "just check if that twitter account had new posts, or that hentai cartoonist got a new hentai manga (yeah I used to fap to Hentai manga a lot). Just have a glance and close it".

And I found it hard to resist this temptation, and often end up edging to those.
Though I'm not doing PMO, only taking glances is close to a relapse, or actually it is..

I will tell myself next time, those bullshit is nothing compared to what I'm determined to. I don't care if there is new stuff in the porn kingdom, because I don't want to go that crappy place anymore.

 

[mr_redstar]

I was out of country in the end of 2019 and just got back.
I relapsed few times when I was abroad, and I got back into the internet porn stuff.

Starting a new counting now, 01/17/2020

Discipline!

 

[Zel99]

sex with my partner feels better than it was before I quit porn.
I think my PIED situation got improved a lot. In the old days when I put on condom, I would easily lose erection.
Also DE problem has improved.

Will hold onto it! 

I just read through your journal. Keep posting here. You said yourself that you saw progress. Have you discussed some of your problems with your wife? It might help to have an encouraging partner to help you along with your reboot. I do, however, see a trend here. You have trouble resisting urges to check twitter and look at porn. Only you can find the motivation and willpower to resist these temptations. Experiment with different ways to distract yourself when you feel these urges.

It's disappointing to have to reset your counter, but you know what you have to do. Continue to post in your journal, we're right here with you man. You can do it.

 

[mr_redstar]

After seeing some improvements, I have mostly given up the reboot progress.. Maybe due to COVID stress..
Recently I have been addicted to sexting.. And I think I got some PIED issues recently..
This has to change, I don't want to get ED at this early age. Real sex is obviously much better than all the porn, hentai, and sexting crap.

I know it was shameful to give up, but I have decided to restart here. I installed a block app on my cellphone and created a random password only accessible from a secondary email account. Hope it would work