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Unbreakable said:Not really.
How far are you into the reboot right now?
5 weeks without PMO, but I've MOed 3 times (I don't know if this is good or bad).
Unbreakable said:Not really.
How far are you into the reboot right now?
5 weeks without PMO, but I've MOed 3 times (I don't know if this is good or bad).
Unbreakable said:Had a very strong chaser effect last night after indulging in fantasies. The result was that I couldn't sleep the entire night. I spent like 6 hours in bed, wide awake. The things that were triggered felt like white fire in my head. I don't know how else to describe it.
When I woke up, I noticed I was like 1/4 erect. I was laying on the side. As I clumsily tried to get up, I managed to squeze my own penis between my legs. I can still feel it. The gods have their way in giving punishments. Hope there is no long term damage. The paranoia is setting in.
Unbreakable said:Things are moving forward. Have pretty strong withdrawal symptoms, with shivering, shaking and mood swings.
Not good that it seems like I must have hurt my eardrum with a syringe. It just doesn't feel right. Managed to hurt my kne too. It's my health paranoia talking.
Damn sorry to hear about that one man. The midnight attacks are the absolute worst as they creep up on you at your weakest moment - I've often failed in those moments. Hang in there man. And those mood swings and changes in perception of reality are also tough to deal with especially if they are recurring.
Have you got anything or any activities you can use to distract yourself?
Unbreakable said:My health paranoia is still there. I fear I have a retraction in my ear drum due to an accident. I will have it checked out in three weeks time. In the meantime, I can't let the fear and anxiety dominate me.
I actually suffer from something like this too. Some kind of hypochondria-like manifestations.
dude hang in there man! We're rooting for you! Dun give up pliz
Unbreakable said:I'll be completely honest. Again it strikes me how little functionality I have. The problem doesn't seem to be physical, it happens because my brain is completely fried. Makes me think how much I must have damaged myself through the years. This is a far cry from how I functioned in my youth. The change was gradual, it snuck upon me, but when the consequenses showed themselves, they were absolute in their mercilessness. Oh well, I will do nothing but move forward.