Choosing to be free

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WhatFakerDoes

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It's my second attempt here to write a journal to quit and stop my porn addiction. But after ten days of writing my first journal, I relapsed and binge and that was just yesterday. Then I navigated to this forum finding for answers, "HOW DO I STOP RELAPSING?", then  I message one of the members who are online and in his profile he is more than 400 days "porn-free". In my mind, "how did he do that? What's the formula of stopping this addiction?" but one thing that shook me is his reply. He has this question, " What is the reason why you want to stop?" Then I realized that I really don't have a concrete reason to stop. I want to stop porn addiction at first because all I know that it is bad, harmful, and taboo to our religion (btw I'm a Christian). But I really don't have that motivation, the REASON why I should stop porn.  As Gary Wilson asked "Why would a porn loving guy give it up?". Porn gives us pleasure, but why we should stop? Even though it was just yesterday. I realized that I'm quitting porn because I want to change my life. Porn had robbed my life and added nothing to it. I want to enjoy life. AND THE BEST THING TO DO THAT IS TO STOP PORN. PORN is a hindrance, in relationships, socializing, family, even in achieving your dreams. Porn just gives us false happiness. I know it will be hard. But I promise to myself that I'll never give up and be tempted again. That I can overcome this addiction. It will be a long journey but all the pain that I will experience is worth it if that's the only way to be free, to be happy again. And the key thing here is your faith. Your faith in yourself and to the Supreme Being, to God. I'm starting my journey, and there is no turning back.

I'll be updating my new journal daily and I just installed k9 from every computer and smartphone that we have. Good day!
 
Losing Neverland

Losing Neverland

Member
It's great that you've found a reason for quitting porn.

I suggest you maintain this journal, keeping all your thoughts in one place. It will be helpful for you to be able to go back over what you've written if you need to refocus in the future. All the best.
 
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WhatFakerDoes

Member
Thanks man! You know what, I noticed that I have the tendency to relapse whenever I don't write in my journal for a few days.  My journal will be my reminder that "Hey, don't sacrifice all your hard work for just 5 mins of pleasure." I thought at first that this journal will not be helpful at all.
 
vispren

vispren

Active Member
Journals help.

They give motivation, IMO not only from replies or positive feedback we get, but from looking at your documented thoughts and feelings. Journals give a sense accomplishment.

Good luck :)
 
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