Relapsed... Felt so lonely today.. Due to social anxiety, depression i don't have girlfriend..
Feel so horrible right now. It was thousand time when I said ENOUGH and I did no matter what..
I was as well alone in the house.. It increases my loneliness, next time go for a walk whatever..
Try number 5000 to quit porn starting......... now!
I will write here more often, i hope you don't mind it.
It's really messing with me, because i know people in my age are in relationships/they are having sex. I'm not looking bad, people say I'm handsome guy, but due to social anxiety and these mental problems i can't find a girl or i don't have confidence... I was bullied a lot in school and this is still inside me... I didn't have a girlfriend for 5 years or even more (because I was with one 2 months i didn't want lie to her i was honest I didn't felt anything (in heart and also in penis cause already then I had PIED...
I'm so sad right now. I will try to switch on some good music and calm my mind. Like I said: I lost buttle, but I will win the war... Even now when I wrote this last sentence I had little saying in my mind: "Yeaaaah... right". - addiction voice.