hi there guys! I'll get straight to the point! I have hocd,intrusive gay thoughts and somewhat of delayed ejaculation
I have a girlfriend,I'm able to have sex and reach climax(it takes a bit but not really too much) but since 5 years ago,I've started to switch with a kind of different porn material( hentai traps or futanari((girls with penises)) and since then,it looks like I'm attracted to that kind of stuff,I don't masturbate to it since really a lot,everytime I do It I experience uneasyness and feeling wrong in general,like it wasn't meant for me,it all happened because one day I've started having hocd and fear of being gay,I've started to test myself with gay porn and then after a while I had a positive reaction(also only to the penis,like I don't like man they disgust me,even porn with them,but if a girl has a penis it excites me,but also disgust me) I have several questions: If I continue to hold this problem and not fix it,Am I going to get mind illnesses? like serious stuff?(schizoprenia,PTSD) I always feel sad and on low energy,Also Why can I have normal sex?(I have a lot of libido,like really a lot,I think of sex too much) and feel strong acrtraction to females but not for males(only the penis and it must be on a female),what can I do to fix everything? thank you for your time
I have a girlfriend,I'm able to have sex and reach climax(it takes a bit but not really too much) but since 5 years ago,I've started to switch with a kind of different porn material( hentai traps or futanari((girls with penises)) and since then,it looks like I'm attracted to that kind of stuff,I don't masturbate to it since really a lot,everytime I do It I experience uneasyness and feeling wrong in general,like it wasn't meant for me,it all happened because one day I've started having hocd and fear of being gay,I've started to test myself with gay porn and then after a while I had a positive reaction(also only to the penis,like I don't like man they disgust me,even porn with them,but if a girl has a penis it excites me,but also disgust me) I have several questions: If I continue to hold this problem and not fix it,Am I going to get mind illnesses? like serious stuff?(schizoprenia,PTSD) I always feel sad and on low energy,Also Why can I have normal sex?(I have a lot of libido,like really a lot,I think of sex too much) and feel strong acrtraction to females but not for males(only the penis and it must be on a female),what can I do to fix everything? thank you for your time