SeanKirk91
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This is a journal that I've opened not just because I realize that I have a problem, but because that problem has damn near ruined my life. I'm failing as a college student, I have hurt my girlfriend (who is the love of my life) to no end, and I feel weak, almost like I'm half a man. I want it all to stop, and after much research and delving into archives of information and literature and looking over many people's different blogs, Ive realized that a much needed reboot is in order. I've been trying at this since December of last year, and doing so was so easy at first. I didn't really even want to masturbate during that time. However, about the time I arrived back to school (I'm an active college student) and returning to my apartment, it's like everything fell apart and this became one of the hardest aspects of my life. I just want all of this to be out of my life. I feel like there is a glass ceiling where I'm looking at who I could be, but I'm just stuck where I am. I'm tired of being stuck. I'm going to beat this, and everyone who is around me and makes a difference in my life will see and notice it. Most importantly, I'm going to stop sleeping on my own life and finally achieve the things that I am destined to achieve and obtain the happiness that was placed here on this earth by God for me to take hold of!