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Hi Everyone,
My name is Pieter, I'm 28 years old, and have a pretty severe addiction to porn and sex-chatting. Like with many of you it started quite innocent in my teen years, when I discovered porn. Hover, over the years, this has developed into a ever growing stronger addiction. I'm now up to the point where I'm not sexually interested anymore in normal guys (Im gay), but can only get aroused when I either watch extreme porn videos or when I chat with people online about the same fantasies. It developed from 'normal' soft porn, to more hard-core porn, to soft SM to hard SM. I'm now up to a point where I know, if I would act out these full fantasies real live, it would probably be a horrible experience.
I've known that I'm addicted for some time now I guess, after all, these videos are not normal, and I just cannot stop watching them...
So, it is time to start my reboot. I've 'kinda tried' this before, and noticed how strongly this addiction fights back. One thing is sure, it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be all out warfare. I've never made it past ~10 days without PMO, and most of my tries failed even before the first week. So I know I need my full focus for at least the first 2 weeks to get things started.
I have a plan now to fight this monster:
1. I removed all my dating apps, pictures, videos, .... Anything that could remind me of these fantasies
2. I started a Meditation course. To get more control over my thoughts. I'll meditate 2x a day for 15 minutes.
3. I will exercise at least 2x a week
4. I will bring back some structure to my life. Not just my work life, also my outside of work hours. I need to plan what I will do, so I keep myself busy with other things than porn.
Today is day 0. My first goal now is 30 days. See how things go. Time to fight this monster!!!!!
My name is Pieter, I'm 28 years old, and have a pretty severe addiction to porn and sex-chatting. Like with many of you it started quite innocent in my teen years, when I discovered porn. Hover, over the years, this has developed into a ever growing stronger addiction. I'm now up to the point where I'm not sexually interested anymore in normal guys (Im gay), but can only get aroused when I either watch extreme porn videos or when I chat with people online about the same fantasies. It developed from 'normal' soft porn, to more hard-core porn, to soft SM to hard SM. I'm now up to a point where I know, if I would act out these full fantasies real live, it would probably be a horrible experience.
I've known that I'm addicted for some time now I guess, after all, these videos are not normal, and I just cannot stop watching them...
So, it is time to start my reboot. I've 'kinda tried' this before, and noticed how strongly this addiction fights back. One thing is sure, it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be all out warfare. I've never made it past ~10 days without PMO, and most of my tries failed even before the first week. So I know I need my full focus for at least the first 2 weeks to get things started.
I have a plan now to fight this monster:
1. I removed all my dating apps, pictures, videos, .... Anything that could remind me of these fantasies
2. I started a Meditation course. To get more control over my thoughts. I'll meditate 2x a day for 15 minutes.
3. I will exercise at least 2x a week
4. I will bring back some structure to my life. Not just my work life, also my outside of work hours. I need to plan what I will do, so I keep myself busy with other things than porn.
Today is day 0. My first goal now is 30 days. See how things go. Time to fight this monster!!!!!