Hey all,
First time posting and really committing to getting off pmo. I'm 34 years old, been using pmo for about 7 years, and I'm technically a virgin. This is not my first time trying to stop, but it's definitely my most serious so far, driven by the realization that I have PIED.
I grew up very faithful LDS (Mormon) and sex before marriage wasn't allowed. Around the time I started pmo I was starting to question my religion, but not enough to totally blow through that rule so I started using pmo, figuring it was a harmless "compromise".
Over the past 7 years, I noticed a gradual decrease in my erection response. I used to get hard just kissing or touching a girl, but began to notice that even with intense making out I got nothing. As I continued to distance myself from my religion I did engage in oral a couple of times but I couldn't maintain the erection long at all. I chalked that up to performance anxiety since I was new. There even began to be a delayed/weakened response to pmo (and pretty much no response without the porn part of that equation) but I didn't think much of it.
A couple months ago I finally decided that I was not going to be LDS anymore and that I was open to sex. A couple weeks ago I met a girl, got her number, and then went out with her last weekend. We actually ended up back at my place. This girl was absolutely gorgeous. And nothing. I could not get an erection (maybe at one point got like 30% of one, but that's it.)
That's when I finally admitted I have PIED and have to make a change.
Friday, November 1 was my day one. I nearly/partially relapsed on the night of day 7 when I woke up in the middle of the night. Depends how you define it, I guess. Woke up horny, looked up some safe for work bikini images and began masturbating but somehow backed off prior to orgasm. I'm actually not totally sure if that's considered relapse or not but I'm giving myself a little more leeway for week 1.
I have tried stopping a handful of times before (mostly early on for moral reasons) and I found that my biggest problem is that I would do pretty well during the daytimes but sometimes would wake up horny in the middle of the night, and my decision making skills and self control just tend to be a lot weaker when that happens. Then of course once I relapsed in one of those situations, it would open the floodgates for the next couple of days. Anyone have that experience and any tips for beating that?
In any event, I'm actually really excited to make this change. Right now I'm feeling super strong and motivated but I know that there will be some tough days. This is my first time using a site like this for support, so nice to meet you all.
Wish me luck!
First time posting and really committing to getting off pmo. I'm 34 years old, been using pmo for about 7 years, and I'm technically a virgin. This is not my first time trying to stop, but it's definitely my most serious so far, driven by the realization that I have PIED.
I grew up very faithful LDS (Mormon) and sex before marriage wasn't allowed. Around the time I started pmo I was starting to question my religion, but not enough to totally blow through that rule so I started using pmo, figuring it was a harmless "compromise".
Over the past 7 years, I noticed a gradual decrease in my erection response. I used to get hard just kissing or touching a girl, but began to notice that even with intense making out I got nothing. As I continued to distance myself from my religion I did engage in oral a couple of times but I couldn't maintain the erection long at all. I chalked that up to performance anxiety since I was new. There even began to be a delayed/weakened response to pmo (and pretty much no response without the porn part of that equation) but I didn't think much of it.
A couple months ago I finally decided that I was not going to be LDS anymore and that I was open to sex. A couple weeks ago I met a girl, got her number, and then went out with her last weekend. We actually ended up back at my place. This girl was absolutely gorgeous. And nothing. I could not get an erection (maybe at one point got like 30% of one, but that's it.)
That's when I finally admitted I have PIED and have to make a change.
Friday, November 1 was my day one. I nearly/partially relapsed on the night of day 7 when I woke up in the middle of the night. Depends how you define it, I guess. Woke up horny, looked up some safe for work bikini images and began masturbating but somehow backed off prior to orgasm. I'm actually not totally sure if that's considered relapse or not but I'm giving myself a little more leeway for week 1.
I have tried stopping a handful of times before (mostly early on for moral reasons) and I found that my biggest problem is that I would do pretty well during the daytimes but sometimes would wake up horny in the middle of the night, and my decision making skills and self control just tend to be a lot weaker when that happens. Then of course once I relapsed in one of those situations, it would open the floodgates for the next couple of days. Anyone have that experience and any tips for beating that?
In any event, I'm actually really excited to make this change. Right now I'm feeling super strong and motivated but I know that there will be some tough days. This is my first time using a site like this for support, so nice to meet you all.
Wish me luck!