DAY 1
Hi guys,
I created an account here a couple of years ago, but I can't remember my username, nor can I remember the mail address I created exclusively for this forum. It doesn't really matter, I'm starting frow scratch, so why not create a new account.
I'll make this first post short. I want to stop using pmo. I believe it's the major component in my life's difficulties. I suffer from social anxiety, I became irresponsible and lazy as fu**, I can't connect with people (or it takes a looot of time, and people who are patient and have some emotional intelligence) , my social interactions with people I don't really know are super awkward. Plus, I suffer from PIED (is that a surprise on this forum?! )
It's crazy to think I would be 2 or 3 years PMO free, today, if I had been able to stop the day I realized it was hurtful. Juste like tons of people here, I managed to stop for 2 weeks here, 1 week here and there, but I always relapsed. I'm pretty sure I managed to stop for 3 weeks only once in my life. It it was great. Even after just 2 weeks, last summer, I was more confident, more charismatic, more empathetic, more productive at work, I slept much better... It's crazy to be unable to stop doing something that I recognize as being so toxic to me.
I managed to quit smoking last summer. It was really hard, but it's a piece of cake compared to the pmo addiction.
Back in February, I stopped for 2 weeks and my family (they don't live in the same city) came to see me. My sister was like "damned something changed for the better, there's something different in you!". And indeed, I felt much better (not like the zombie I usually am). I was present, relaxed, open to discussion, curious about everything, thirsty for knowledge.
I'll spend this Christmas with my family. I really want to be joyful and present with them. Not the melancholic zombie I currently am.
25 days, I can do that! And maybe the whole month of December?
See you soon, for an update !
Mr Freeze
Hi guys,
I created an account here a couple of years ago, but I can't remember my username, nor can I remember the mail address I created exclusively for this forum. It doesn't really matter, I'm starting frow scratch, so why not create a new account.
I'll make this first post short. I want to stop using pmo. I believe it's the major component in my life's difficulties. I suffer from social anxiety, I became irresponsible and lazy as fu**, I can't connect with people (or it takes a looot of time, and people who are patient and have some emotional intelligence) , my social interactions with people I don't really know are super awkward. Plus, I suffer from PIED (is that a surprise on this forum?! )
It's crazy to think I would be 2 or 3 years PMO free, today, if I had been able to stop the day I realized it was hurtful. Juste like tons of people here, I managed to stop for 2 weeks here, 1 week here and there, but I always relapsed. I'm pretty sure I managed to stop for 3 weeks only once in my life. It it was great. Even after just 2 weeks, last summer, I was more confident, more charismatic, more empathetic, more productive at work, I slept much better... It's crazy to be unable to stop doing something that I recognize as being so toxic to me.
I managed to quit smoking last summer. It was really hard, but it's a piece of cake compared to the pmo addiction.
Back in February, I stopped for 2 weeks and my family (they don't live in the same city) came to see me. My sister was like "damned something changed for the better, there's something different in you!". And indeed, I felt much better (not like the zombie I usually am). I was present, relaxed, open to discussion, curious about everything, thirsty for knowledge.
I'll spend this Christmas with my family. I really want to be joyful and present with them. Not the melancholic zombie I currently am.
25 days, I can do that! And maybe the whole month of December?
See you soon, for an update !
Mr Freeze