maladaptive daydreamer
Member
Hello forum.
Just a quit post.
I have finally realized that my PMO has nothing to do with sexuality and desire for sexual relief, but is rather a massive stress coping mechanism.
I, kind of, understood this for a while now, but porn watching has never been a detrimental thing in my life, other than guilt, (apostate Christian), everything else seemed to be going good.
However recently I have been going through a very difficult time in my life, and I realized how really dependent on PMO I was for dopamine.
I am 42 and have used porn since I was 13.
The thing is, I grew up, married, had kids, overcome my massive abuse, (dad beat the shit out of me almost every day up until 16) become successful, own a business, all the while watching massive amounts of porn. I never hid it from my wife, I told her right as soon as I started dating.
However at this point I realize that my PMO is not about normal sexual relief, but about the stress relief aspect of it.
Since I am all about self betterment and stuff, I decided I no longer want to be controlled by porn.
So I am 3 days no PMO, no fantasies or anything sexual at all. Let's how it goes.
Just a quit post.
I have finally realized that my PMO has nothing to do with sexuality and desire for sexual relief, but is rather a massive stress coping mechanism.
I, kind of, understood this for a while now, but porn watching has never been a detrimental thing in my life, other than guilt, (apostate Christian), everything else seemed to be going good.
However recently I have been going through a very difficult time in my life, and I realized how really dependent on PMO I was for dopamine.
I am 42 and have used porn since I was 13.
The thing is, I grew up, married, had kids, overcome my massive abuse, (dad beat the shit out of me almost every day up until 16) become successful, own a business, all the while watching massive amounts of porn. I never hid it from my wife, I told her right as soon as I started dating.
However at this point I realize that my PMO is not about normal sexual relief, but about the stress relief aspect of it.
Since I am all about self betterment and stuff, I decided I no longer want to be controlled by porn.
So I am 3 days no PMO, no fantasies or anything sexual at all. Let's how it goes.