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OwainOwen
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Hi.
I'm a returning member, and a long-term porn addiction struggler. As is not uncommon with such beginnings - or restarts - I'm here in somewhat of a rock-bottom scenario.
I'm aware, though, that by the standards of this addiction I remain relatively lucky. I've certainly damaged my sex life, but I still have a loving partner. I've had very occasional PIED but it hasn't been an ongoing problem. And I've been relatively fortunate in not escalating my use in various ways.
Alongside the porn problem I have broader internet-use issues. This is largely social media. I've quit Facebook successfully (in June 2016), but I have an ongoing Twitter problem. I deleted my account today.
I use YouTube too much, but I will continue to use it for the moment as it doesn't seem a pressing cause of distress. Time will tell if that's a wise move (I suspect it is not).
I can't engage with either porn or twitter in any sensible way. If I go near either I'm not far from bingeing and from feeling angry, ashamed, guilty... and so on and so on.
A fairly familiar story.
I've done this before. I was an enthusiastic user of the NoFap forum but left there as overuse of that forum itself became a problem. I also had some issues with the way the site was run.
I think I need support, but I don't want to become dependent on posting here.
I have a lot going in my favour: I'm well established in recovery from drugs and alcohol (coming up to 7 years). That recovery has seen some positives in my life. I'm much fitter and healthier than I've ever been. I have a loving relationship. In terms of work, finances, housing and so on I don't have too much to be scared about - though I would love to improve things, particularly my work life. I haev a fairly clear idea of the things (exercise, meditation, creativity) that are positives for me and that help me stay sober.
I have challenges: I work at home, alone, as a content writer and I need to be online for most of my working life; stopping drinking cut off my main avenue for socialising and I can be somewhat solitary. Challenges... we're addicts, I suspect we all have some level of personality or psychological change we would like to make. I'm not currently in any form of counselling or treatment but I have had a good deal of that related to my alcohol addiction.
I need help. Maybe some companionship.
That's about it for now. I can overuse these forums, so expect to see a lot of me.
Thanks for your time and I look forward to meeting some of you in due course.
I'm a returning member, and a long-term porn addiction struggler. As is not uncommon with such beginnings - or restarts - I'm here in somewhat of a rock-bottom scenario.
I'm aware, though, that by the standards of this addiction I remain relatively lucky. I've certainly damaged my sex life, but I still have a loving partner. I've had very occasional PIED but it hasn't been an ongoing problem. And I've been relatively fortunate in not escalating my use in various ways.
Alongside the porn problem I have broader internet-use issues. This is largely social media. I've quit Facebook successfully (in June 2016), but I have an ongoing Twitter problem. I deleted my account today.
I use YouTube too much, but I will continue to use it for the moment as it doesn't seem a pressing cause of distress. Time will tell if that's a wise move (I suspect it is not).
I can't engage with either porn or twitter in any sensible way. If I go near either I'm not far from bingeing and from feeling angry, ashamed, guilty... and so on and so on.
A fairly familiar story.
I've done this before. I was an enthusiastic user of the NoFap forum but left there as overuse of that forum itself became a problem. I also had some issues with the way the site was run.
I think I need support, but I don't want to become dependent on posting here.
I have a lot going in my favour: I'm well established in recovery from drugs and alcohol (coming up to 7 years). That recovery has seen some positives in my life. I'm much fitter and healthier than I've ever been. I have a loving relationship. In terms of work, finances, housing and so on I don't have too much to be scared about - though I would love to improve things, particularly my work life. I haev a fairly clear idea of the things (exercise, meditation, creativity) that are positives for me and that help me stay sober.
I have challenges: I work at home, alone, as a content writer and I need to be online for most of my working life; stopping drinking cut off my main avenue for socialising and I can be somewhat solitary. Challenges... we're addicts, I suspect we all have some level of personality or psychological change we would like to make. I'm not currently in any form of counselling or treatment but I have had a good deal of that related to my alcohol addiction.
I need help. Maybe some companionship.
That's about it for now. I can overuse these forums, so expect to see a lot of me.
Thanks for your time and I look forward to meeting some of you in due course.