*Disclaimer: I can come across as a bit arrogant and conceited. This is primarily written as a personal narrative to reread later*
People tell me I inspire them.
People say I motivate them.
People tell me thanks for helping them when they needed it the most.
People tell me I am strong.
To be fair, I am far more confident than I should be. I was raised in a cult-like religion where most of those that have left still struggle with recovery.
I have a dad-bod and would only peg myself at average in looks on a good day.
I have had many setbacks in my life that should have crushed my confidence.
I let go of negativity and project a positive outlook. I am honest, but tactful and people call that strength.
I am not strong though.
I am porn addicted and have had an issue with M for as long as I can remember. Side effect of cult is that it discusses all manners of ?sin? in graphic terms and I was sexualized at a very young age.
I have been using PMO so long now, I sometimes need it to fall asleep. I have PIED which I had just accepted as a part of me for years now.
I haven?t even wanted to quit. Last time I tried was over 15 years ago and I lasted 17 days. For someone with a lot of confidence, it sickened me I couldn?t quit.
I confidently accepted that this is who I was and carried on with life. I found other ways to keep my wife satisfied, but she always felt bad I wasn?t able to climax with her.
?Getting old I guess? is how she chocked it up.
I am not happy with this. I don?t really know why I am trying to make a change now. Nothing makes today different or special, but it is the day I want to remove the last bit of weakness from me.
If anyone cares to read along, I won?t be updating at any regular frequency, but I will be honest. It may be a fantastic success story, it may be abject failure.
I want to be strong, let?s see how it goes.
People tell me I inspire them.
People say I motivate them.
People tell me thanks for helping them when they needed it the most.
People tell me I am strong.
To be fair, I am far more confident than I should be. I was raised in a cult-like religion where most of those that have left still struggle with recovery.
I have a dad-bod and would only peg myself at average in looks on a good day.
I have had many setbacks in my life that should have crushed my confidence.
I let go of negativity and project a positive outlook. I am honest, but tactful and people call that strength.
I am not strong though.
I am porn addicted and have had an issue with M for as long as I can remember. Side effect of cult is that it discusses all manners of ?sin? in graphic terms and I was sexualized at a very young age.
I have been using PMO so long now, I sometimes need it to fall asleep. I have PIED which I had just accepted as a part of me for years now.
I haven?t even wanted to quit. Last time I tried was over 15 years ago and I lasted 17 days. For someone with a lot of confidence, it sickened me I couldn?t quit.
I confidently accepted that this is who I was and carried on with life. I found other ways to keep my wife satisfied, but she always felt bad I wasn?t able to climax with her.
?Getting old I guess? is how she chocked it up.
I am not happy with this. I don?t really know why I am trying to make a change now. Nothing makes today different or special, but it is the day I want to remove the last bit of weakness from me.
If anyone cares to read along, I won?t be updating at any regular frequency, but I will be honest. It may be a fantastic success story, it may be abject failure.
I want to be strong, let?s see how it goes.