Hi guys.
I?ve been addicted to porn since my mid teens, without knowing or understanding the implications of it. I didn?t realise I had ED until my early twenties. I has caused enormous suffering and hardship throughout my twenties. I saw doctors and therapists and urologists and none of them were able to help me. I just became resigned developer a generally apathetic view towards life. until I discovered yourbrainonporn.com over two years ago. I was 31 when I quit porn and I?m 33 now. It?s really difficult looking back on my life at this point, I?ve missed out on a lot of opportunities both professionally and personally that most people would have killed to have had.
I quit porn but not masturbating initially. The first three months were tough emotionally. And then I quit masturbation entirely and the rebooting process was very emotionally draining. I went through that for about 3 to 4 months and I felt fine. My goal was to find a partner to rewire to. I reintroduced masturbation after awhile while I tried to find the right partner. Big mistake.
Eventually I ended up back into the old habits, no porn, but frequent masturbation and edging. I didn?t realise that would be an issue until I did eventually have sex and found I still had ED. That was two and a half months ago. I?ve gone back to a hard reset. This time it?s been even tougher emotionally. Only this time I?m older with even more regrets. I?m emotionally tormented by my past and my past inability to recognise the impact porn and masturabation had on my life. I was totally blindsided by this information and felt like to came just too late. It?s sad it?s taken so long for me to find this online community.
I wanted to document my experience for posterity. And also to any guys out there that have had similar experiences; how long could a reboot take at this point? Given I?ve been totally free from the stimulant of porn for well over two years now. I have been masturbating for about a year prior to 10 weeks ago. I?m no longer in a relationship. I don?t know how much longer this rebooting process could take. I?m trying to stay optimistic and to remind myself I?m still relatively young. I just really want to get past this as soon as I can and move on with my life and leave this horrible chapter of my life behind me for good.
I?ve been addicted to porn since my mid teens, without knowing or understanding the implications of it. I didn?t realise I had ED until my early twenties. I has caused enormous suffering and hardship throughout my twenties. I saw doctors and therapists and urologists and none of them were able to help me. I just became resigned developer a generally apathetic view towards life. until I discovered yourbrainonporn.com over two years ago. I was 31 when I quit porn and I?m 33 now. It?s really difficult looking back on my life at this point, I?ve missed out on a lot of opportunities both professionally and personally that most people would have killed to have had.
I quit porn but not masturbating initially. The first three months were tough emotionally. And then I quit masturbation entirely and the rebooting process was very emotionally draining. I went through that for about 3 to 4 months and I felt fine. My goal was to find a partner to rewire to. I reintroduced masturbation after awhile while I tried to find the right partner. Big mistake.
Eventually I ended up back into the old habits, no porn, but frequent masturbation and edging. I didn?t realise that would be an issue until I did eventually have sex and found I still had ED. That was two and a half months ago. I?ve gone back to a hard reset. This time it?s been even tougher emotionally. Only this time I?m older with even more regrets. I?m emotionally tormented by my past and my past inability to recognise the impact porn and masturabation had on my life. I was totally blindsided by this information and felt like to came just too late. It?s sad it?s taken so long for me to find this online community.
I wanted to document my experience for posterity. And also to any guys out there that have had similar experiences; how long could a reboot take at this point? Given I?ve been totally free from the stimulant of porn for well over two years now. I have been masturbating for about a year prior to 10 weeks ago. I?m no longer in a relationship. I don?t know how much longer this rebooting process could take. I?m trying to stay optimistic and to remind myself I?m still relatively young. I just really want to get past this as soon as I can and move on with my life and leave this horrible chapter of my life behind me for good.