1 year and a half I relapsed and then flatlined again

[halleyandersonvn]

I had my first flatline in june-30-2018. about 2 earlier it was happining, but I could recover and finish my job(I got to orgasm).
since June/30/2018, I got to know the Nofap thing and Dr. Gary Wilson's work... etc.
I read Dr. Gary's book cover to cover...and I figured out that my problem was porn induced.
I spent 1 year recovering, my erection was never the same, until I have a new girlfriend... In october/2019...
with her, in our first time I almost lost power, but I finish the work... and from the second time on, everything came back to normality...
but, we broke up and since then, I do not have a girl to satisfy me everytime I need... that's when I started relapsing... I did not use pornografy... but started looking to the sexy pictures of girls that I know on instagram... and fapping for them...
I even bought a rubber pussy for to satisfy me, and then I was masturbating once a day... everyday...
when I found a partner, my dick didn't work again... flat line...
I'm worried... is it gonna take 1 year again for me to recover?
it happened in january,4/2020... after that, I masturbated the day after, jan/05, and jan/20, and feb/01... just to relieve...
My concern is: is it gonna take that much time for me to recover?

 

[eljoeyjojo]

wow you did 1 year and you relapsed??? i can't say i like what i'm hearing as we all look fwd to ppl saying they recovered without any issues.
like you i recently broke up with my gf but i was with her only 3 months and we only had sex once 'cause we were "waiting" till it was the right time but that didn't workout so well
however, i'm 4 months in and I think I only relapsed once but haven't looked back although I've had a few one night stands so I guess I haven't really rebooted correctly? maybe perhaps but I have noticed a huge difference in my erection and just sometimes do I get flashbacks of some porn scenes but I quickly imagine myself shattering them like a broken glass and that seems to work. I run quite a lot, about 60 kms a week, hit the gym twice a week so all the energy goes towards that but Lent started today and being Catholic I will give up a few things for the next 40 days and one of them is all sex related things. I might be a piece of shit, good for nothing cocky prick who cares about only himself but if there is anything that I'm REALLY GOOD AT, it's that I have a very strong will power and when I say I will do someting I almost take it on as a challenge and have done a few crazy things. Maybe it's my stubborn personality and for once it is actually paying off. I'm 4 months and honestly I don't think I will ever watch porn again. I'm pretty strict with myself so I blocked all porn related sites inside my WiFi. If I feel super horny and really want it bad (which has happened) I simply try to get laid. I try to convince myself that it's the only way to do it and if I am not successful at finding a willing lady then I simply study/workout and try to focus my energy somewhere else but again I'm a stubborn SOB!

Dude you need to keep busy, hangout with friends, start a hobby and try to be so tired by the end of the day so that you don't result to masturbation. In my opinion even masturbation to pictures can't be a good thing for the mind. I read Your Brain on Porn by Dr. Gary Wilson and it changed my life and I have seen very good results.  Question, when you completed your 1 year, during that time did you watch porn/masturbate? or did you go 1 whole year clean??

Stay strong dude!