jfrancisco2102
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Hi guys, how you doing? Im writing this post to share the reasons why this time I am giving a fully devoted and compromised try to my reboot process.
I dont want to Bore you, but i would like to share my whole story so that maybe someone who is dealing with the same issue than I can relate to this and keep trying.
Background
I am 19 years old by now. I consider myself a very good looking guy, as im also very lean and Athletic since I am almost a professional tennis player. I was always aroused by girls. I mean, when i kissed one i instantly had a boner. I became sexually active at the age of 17 and a Half more or less. This time i had no issue penetrating and putting a condom. I had sex once more later that month. Since then till now, I didn't have a successful sex encounter. i tried twice again, one 9 months later and the other like a year and 3 months later. in both encounters i had issues while getting hard, something that caught my attention, since i am completely healthy.
I dont remember exactly when i started consuming hardcore porn, since the first years of masturbation were with soft porn. the thing is that i became extremely hooked on porn, masturbating sometimes even 3/4 times a Day. I thought it was normal tough.
i had tryed rebooting earlier but with no success. now its different. I'll tell you why, and with this i want to encourage fellas to keep trying.
Since the last time i had sex, i had developed a fear for being ridiculous while having sex, some sort of performance anxiety, something i didn't have the first 2 times i had sex. My sex drive for real girls is quite low and i Think im kinda afraid of intimacy, of having intimacy with a girl i also have sex with.
i started researching even more than i had researched before and i found some things really important to take into account.
Constant expose to High speed porn can lead to something called 'sexual anorexia'. this thing is basically feeling anxious in real sex and kinda scared (exactly how i feel right now). also, this expose can lead to really low sex drive since you are numbing your real Desire for sex with Constant novelty, Easy to access. in addition, i read a testimony of a guy who claimed porn has stolen his intimacy with his girl. I mean, everything that happens to me seems to be caused by this porn addiction related brain changes. The thing i know is that im done feeling this way. something needs to change.
so guys, Wish me luck, im on my Day 4 rn, and my willingness to quit seems very strong.
i Will update this, thanks for Reading
FIRST EDIT:
Fellas, how u doing?
I?m happy to announce I?m on a week streak of no PMO. Going through my 8th day. I know for some of you this will sound like it?s not worthy of being proud but I?m surely am. I experienced a bit of urges yesterday in my 7th day but were manageable. What is really helping me was viewing all the videos available in this page, including the 1 hour video of Gary Wilson. Knowing the bad porn has caused to my brain is all i need to be determined to stop this terrible habit. I?ll keep you with the latest.
I dont want to Bore you, but i would like to share my whole story so that maybe someone who is dealing with the same issue than I can relate to this and keep trying.
Background
I am 19 years old by now. I consider myself a very good looking guy, as im also very lean and Athletic since I am almost a professional tennis player. I was always aroused by girls. I mean, when i kissed one i instantly had a boner. I became sexually active at the age of 17 and a Half more or less. This time i had no issue penetrating and putting a condom. I had sex once more later that month. Since then till now, I didn't have a successful sex encounter. i tried twice again, one 9 months later and the other like a year and 3 months later. in both encounters i had issues while getting hard, something that caught my attention, since i am completely healthy.
I dont remember exactly when i started consuming hardcore porn, since the first years of masturbation were with soft porn. the thing is that i became extremely hooked on porn, masturbating sometimes even 3/4 times a Day. I thought it was normal tough.
i had tryed rebooting earlier but with no success. now its different. I'll tell you why, and with this i want to encourage fellas to keep trying.
Since the last time i had sex, i had developed a fear for being ridiculous while having sex, some sort of performance anxiety, something i didn't have the first 2 times i had sex. My sex drive for real girls is quite low and i Think im kinda afraid of intimacy, of having intimacy with a girl i also have sex with.
i started researching even more than i had researched before and i found some things really important to take into account.
Constant expose to High speed porn can lead to something called 'sexual anorexia'. this thing is basically feeling anxious in real sex and kinda scared (exactly how i feel right now). also, this expose can lead to really low sex drive since you are numbing your real Desire for sex with Constant novelty, Easy to access. in addition, i read a testimony of a guy who claimed porn has stolen his intimacy with his girl. I mean, everything that happens to me seems to be caused by this porn addiction related brain changes. The thing i know is that im done feeling this way. something needs to change.
so guys, Wish me luck, im on my Day 4 rn, and my willingness to quit seems very strong.
i Will update this, thanks for Reading
FIRST EDIT:
Fellas, how u doing?
I?m happy to announce I?m on a week streak of no PMO. Going through my 8th day. I know for some of you this will sound like it?s not worthy of being proud but I?m surely am. I experienced a bit of urges yesterday in my 7th day but were manageable. What is really helping me was viewing all the videos available in this page, including the 1 hour video of Gary Wilson. Knowing the bad porn has caused to my brain is all i need to be determined to stop this terrible habit. I?ll keep you with the latest.
