Could need some feedback and thoughts after 9 months of no P

[Jeks]

Hey guys

I have got PIED. At least i hope, because when i did the the test i got no full erection in both occassions, but it was better with porn and much easier to orgasm (could not really orgasm at all without porn). I also had a surgery against venous leak, which did not help. The last time i saw the doctor, he told me, everything looks fine. However he also told me, that sometimes it looks fine, but it isnt, but then there is no way of surgery and i have to try other methods... Anyway.
I am now nine months porn free and four months without MO. There were 2 to 3 5-days periods with month-long breaks in between during my reboot, in which i have got really good to full nocturnal or morning erections, but in the last weeks there is not much happening down there.
The last days i really started to think about, when i should maybe try to MO to see where i am at. I read on ybop, that MW is not always a definite indicator. I think i will maybe wait one more month or so.
Do you guys have some thoughts about my situation? I would appreciate it.

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-porn-use-faqs/how-do-i-know-when-im-back-to-normal/#erections

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-porn-use-faqs/how-do-i-know-when-im-back-to-normal/when-do-i-test/

Edit: i realized, that the way i wrote this entry sounded very calm. Therefore i want to add, that i am really kind of desperate and depressed about my pied and that i would very much appreciate any experiences, thoughts and advice. Thanks

 

[Guts]

Hey Jeks if I were you I'd continue to go hard mode for more than 6 months or until you start to see consistent morning wood for more than a month. I went 6 months of no orgasm and didn't have much MW during those 6 months but I orgasmed after that and my erections got better however I still continue to flatline in and out if I orgasm too much. I wish I had gone longer than 6 months so if I were you I'd keep going.

Hard mode was and is the only thing that's helped me, I had gone many months with just no porn and continued to orgasm and that never got me anywhere, others might tell you otherwise but I think it's best to keep away from any stimulation. I'd hate to see you orgasm now and then have to go another long bout of no orgasm.

 

[Deleted member 17609]

Hi there,

It?s my opinion too. Just cutting porn was not enough for me. I did not watch porn for almost 18 months but kept masturbating (thinking about pornstars...) and used substitutes once in a while (Instagram pictures of girls in underwear). That did not heal me. My erections were a little better than before, but overall I still have PIED.

Cutting masturbation seems to be the key. I am on day 21st, it is just the beginning of my reboot, but I already see some little progress. Most guys will probably agree with me here.

Keep up the good work! It seems this can take time, so we have to be patient.

 

[Jeks]

Thanks guys,

this is helpful and solid advice. I also read a a few of the recovery stories of longterm rebooters on ybop. Helped me to get my expectations in the right place again.
Its worth mentioning that before i also stopped MO, i already cut it down as much as i could, so i would maybe MO once or twice a month. But still i think i will try being more patient until 6 months of no MO or when MW are consistent and then i will start thinking about further steps.

Much thanks to you guys.

If anyone else has thoughts on my situation, i would much appreciate it.

 

[Relentless Observer]

I agree with the sentiments above.
I have been going through this for close to a year and a half of no porn, but with a lot of fantasy and several masturbations throughout the process.  The masturbations have always seemed to give me a "setback" feeling, where it would take a week or two to start feeling like I was "back in the groove."  Now, I have not masturbated for about 50 days and have had wet dreams in that time.  I figure if my body "needs" to ejaculate, then I will let it do it on its own for now.
I have been desperate at times for hope, distraught at the setbacks I seem to get from masturbating, been jealous that other people never have to go through this.  However, when I am on here with others who are struggling, those succeeding, and those cured I always renew hope.  I hope you are able to find whatever support you need in this time.  I have the support of a counselor who agrees porn poses dangers to men, and my parents, but it still is so tough and I often feel alone. 
Best of luck to you in your sexual health and your emotional health.