Hello everyone, here is my story:
First of all, I'm a 17 year old teenager. Started masturbating when I was 14/15, and almost since the beginning using pornography websites. At first I could still get an erection and eventually reach orgasm without artificial content. But since the last year and a half or so, I really have a hard time reaching ejaculation without using porn, and always fap with it. On the other hand, I don't masturbate everyday, maybe 2/3 times per week, maybe some times more, some times less, depends on how much time I have available, etc. And usually when I do masturbate it is only once a day, almost never more than one fap per day. So I'm not sure if it's considered addiction, because I don't really crave for it, I don't watch it everyday, but I do need it to reach an orgasm, I depend on it. Here is my first shout for help.
Then, I've been in a serious relationship for over 9 months with this amazing girl. We've tried having sex a couple of times, and both of them I haven't been able to maintain a full erection, leading to not being able to realize penetration. Although when we first start making out and caressing/touching I do get pretty hard, but can't make it last long enough. Once I've performed oral sex on her, my penis is no longer erect. Maybe this doesn't have anything to do with my use of pornography, although I'm pretty sure it does, because it's happened twice. Maybe it's just nerves/anxiety. I mean, first time either of us has tried making love.
So right now I'm pretty confused and would really appreciate some indications, some help. Sorry if my vocabulary is not that good, not a native English speaker.
First of all, I'm a 17 year old teenager. Started masturbating when I was 14/15, and almost since the beginning using pornography websites. At first I could still get an erection and eventually reach orgasm without artificial content. But since the last year and a half or so, I really have a hard time reaching ejaculation without using porn, and always fap with it. On the other hand, I don't masturbate everyday, maybe 2/3 times per week, maybe some times more, some times less, depends on how much time I have available, etc. And usually when I do masturbate it is only once a day, almost never more than one fap per day. So I'm not sure if it's considered addiction, because I don't really crave for it, I don't watch it everyday, but I do need it to reach an orgasm, I depend on it. Here is my first shout for help.
Then, I've been in a serious relationship for over 9 months with this amazing girl. We've tried having sex a couple of times, and both of them I haven't been able to maintain a full erection, leading to not being able to realize penetration. Although when we first start making out and caressing/touching I do get pretty hard, but can't make it last long enough. Once I've performed oral sex on her, my penis is no longer erect. Maybe this doesn't have anything to do with my use of pornography, although I'm pretty sure it does, because it's happened twice. Maybe it's just nerves/anxiety. I mean, first time either of us has tried making love.
So right now I'm pretty confused and would really appreciate some indications, some help. Sorry if my vocabulary is not that good, not a native English speaker.