nomorelies
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I am a married man, 31 years old with 2 boys (1 and 4) by my wife. We have been married for nearly 6 years and have been together or been friends for 15 years.
I am a porn addict. I have been a porn addict since I was a teenager, though it has only been during the past year that I have honestly learned to acknowledge it and recognize the problems it has created. My wife is a very beautiful and sexual woman and has always been adventurous, willing to try anything and aggressively attracted to me. You would think that was what any man would dream of but for years I have been standoffish in the bedroom. She has been open about her frustrations, always, but only in the past year has she come to realize the depth of my porn usage. Having given me multiple opportunities to right myself on my own she has reached a breaking point. She would never cheat on me...but she would leave me if I continued to hurt her this way. She hasn?t given me any ultimatums per se but I can feel that storm looming. I have tried to quit in the past, and quickly failed each time. This time is different. This time I feel the weight of my marriage on the line. This time I must succeed.
I haven?t watched porn for 28 days. The longest stretch since I hit puberty. While that is progress I have a lot of work to do to rebuild trust with my wife. I have lied to cover my porn addiction over and over and while she is supportive in my recovery and understanding of the problems I face the trust doesn?t return overnight. My wife and I agreed to seek individual counseling to improve the things we feel are harming our marriage. I have my 2nd such appointment tomorrow. The first one was last week and he encouraged me to visit this forum. Only tonight did I decide I was ready to share my story. I will add more of my story soon as I intend to post at least weekly, hopefully more. I will also add notes on my progress. Thank you for reading and I look forward to rebooting.
I am a porn addict. I have been a porn addict since I was a teenager, though it has only been during the past year that I have honestly learned to acknowledge it and recognize the problems it has created. My wife is a very beautiful and sexual woman and has always been adventurous, willing to try anything and aggressively attracted to me. You would think that was what any man would dream of but for years I have been standoffish in the bedroom. She has been open about her frustrations, always, but only in the past year has she come to realize the depth of my porn usage. Having given me multiple opportunities to right myself on my own she has reached a breaking point. She would never cheat on me...but she would leave me if I continued to hurt her this way. She hasn?t given me any ultimatums per se but I can feel that storm looming. I have tried to quit in the past, and quickly failed each time. This time is different. This time I feel the weight of my marriage on the line. This time I must succeed.
I haven?t watched porn for 28 days. The longest stretch since I hit puberty. While that is progress I have a lot of work to do to rebuild trust with my wife. I have lied to cover my porn addiction over and over and while she is supportive in my recovery and understanding of the problems I face the trust doesn?t return overnight. My wife and I agreed to seek individual counseling to improve the things we feel are harming our marriage. I have my 2nd such appointment tomorrow. The first one was last week and he encouraged me to visit this forum. Only tonight did I decide I was ready to share my story. I will add more of my story soon as I intend to post at least weekly, hopefully more. I will also add notes on my progress. Thank you for reading and I look forward to rebooting.
By adopting a strict attitude toward yourself in these specific moments and telling you that "PORN DOES NOT EXIST FOR ME ANYMORE", you will be able to continue on your streak. Wish you love and hard work man!