Reboot

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CaptainFranklin

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Day 1/90

Imsorry thanks for the support. What you said makes sense. From your recommendation I went back and looked at YBOP again. It made me even more convinced that I am suffering from the ill effects of porn addiction.

Positives: I got back on the horse.

Challenges: well I used porn last night for about an hour and a half. I was planning to just delete my account here and give up. But I decided to try one more time. I made it to 15 days, which I should be happy about. Also if you average my porn time over those days it comes to 90/15 = 6 minutes per day. This is a big step up from regular binges. In any case I hope it will be a momentary mistake on the way to fixing my marital sex problems.
 
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imsorrynotsorry

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You are absolutely right with every word. Shortly after a relapse the urges are very strong and it seems absolutley reasonable to give in, to let autopilot do the job, because it 'feels so good' (and hurts so bad).

There is this documentary 'Fight The New Drug' where they also explain what happens with us and the bodys we see in the clips. Because of all the HD, the close ups and those fake acting of how perfect and enjoyable this world of P is, we start to connect deeply with it and in the end we think that we will never achieve something similar in real life. And yes, we will never do that, because it doesn't exist in the first place, it's not real.

I hope you never give up, even though there are difficulties, but PMO must not be in your life and it's always of great value to fight against it and go back to the life that's meant for you.
 
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CaptainFranklin

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Day 1. I really fell off the recovery train. I am back and am right now committing to get through the day.
 
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