yo yo yo
It's been 16 days since I started this thing and whoa it's intense. Before officially doing a reboot or learning anything about PMO addiction this is the farthest I ever made it on an experimental nofap, so I'm moving into uncharted territory.
Today is the hardest day so far. I considered rebooting a lot. But then I thought about these things:
1. Porn probably fucking ruined part of my life, why would I run back to it.
2. Wanking is weak sauce business (for my style of reboot).
I've been like REALLY close to rebooting, but I use my iron fist and force myself no to. it's weird, but this time im doing this for real.
and that's what ive learned so far, this is all about attitude. I believe this is it.
Since I started my reboot I've been going to the gym all the time. tryna get big and be healthy and actually do something with my body while i still can. and i'm way more motivated. I'm also way more motivated to pursue the female kind.
back in the day i'd be around an attractive girl i liked, and instead of facing rejection or that kind of shit i'd go home to my millions of digital girls and beat myself dry, ever ignorant of the actual harm i was doing to myself. SO DONE WITH THAT NOW.
But yeah now that i have refused to fap, i'm way more motivated in pursuing real live women, and they are all becoming way more attractive. Girls who i would have passed up in the past i now look at like "damn, you have physical boobies"
but that leads me to another thing: porn fucked up my idea of sex. there's no love in the sex seen in porn. its just raw fucking all about the D and the P, no emotion. So i've started meditating, and rethinking sex as a process more than just penetration and orgasm, but as the beautiful indescribable unity between people. I still have a lot to catch up on because fuck porn, but I'm well on my way lads,
this ship ain't gonna sink .
cheers to ya'll. glad this community exists, posting here makes me feel so much stronger.
Day 16, I'm not looking back.
It's been 16 days since I started this thing and whoa it's intense. Before officially doing a reboot or learning anything about PMO addiction this is the farthest I ever made it on an experimental nofap, so I'm moving into uncharted territory.
Today is the hardest day so far. I considered rebooting a lot. But then I thought about these things:
1. Porn probably fucking ruined part of my life, why would I run back to it.
2. Wanking is weak sauce business (for my style of reboot).
I've been like REALLY close to rebooting, but I use my iron fist and force myself no to. it's weird, but this time im doing this for real.
and that's what ive learned so far, this is all about attitude. I believe this is it.
Since I started my reboot I've been going to the gym all the time. tryna get big and be healthy and actually do something with my body while i still can. and i'm way more motivated. I'm also way more motivated to pursue the female kind.
back in the day i'd be around an attractive girl i liked, and instead of facing rejection or that kind of shit i'd go home to my millions of digital girls and beat myself dry, ever ignorant of the actual harm i was doing to myself. SO DONE WITH THAT NOW.
But yeah now that i have refused to fap, i'm way more motivated in pursuing real live women, and they are all becoming way more attractive. Girls who i would have passed up in the past i now look at like "damn, you have physical boobies"
but that leads me to another thing: porn fucked up my idea of sex. there's no love in the sex seen in porn. its just raw fucking all about the D and the P, no emotion. So i've started meditating, and rethinking sex as a process more than just penetration and orgasm, but as the beautiful indescribable unity between people. I still have a lot to catch up on because fuck porn, but I'm well on my way lads,
this ship ain't gonna sink .
cheers to ya'll. glad this community exists, posting here makes me feel so much stronger.
Day 16, I'm not looking back.
