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How's it going Ben? Hope all is well
BennyB. said:Hi RN Community,
After 62 days, I'm back to square one! I relapsed 2 days ago. In the last three weeks, I experienced though personal moments/situations, and that may have to do with the relapse. Nonetheless, the good point in all this is that I think I dentified the trigger that drove me to PMO. Around day 45-50, I began to slowly re-introduce mild/soft triggers in my daily life, like doing random searches with Google. Nothing like P at first, but more of a little tease to get excited. I would search things like a 14 yo boy would do when he's alone at home: "bras", women in bikini", etc. I am pretty confident in saying that around that time, I lost the battle and started to think again about my regular fetishes.
Givin' it another try!
Safe journey bros!
Hi akpal2,Hi Benny from Quebec. Comment ca va? Fellow Canadian here but down from Southern Ontario.
I noticed a few things in your journal which I found very helpful and inspirational to read. I myself am also trying to overcome my latest relapse. You can go through my latest posts in my journal if you want to, I am today on day 7 of my reboot. As a long time sufferer, I must say that thinking about sex or fantasizing is a problem. It will hinder your progress significantly. The idea is to wire to a real person, not to our thoughts or to virtual images like those on screen.
This means your reboot should have no sexual thoughts whatsoever let alone watching bikini pics. After all, just like porn, these are giving us dopamine rushes, right? I have struggled massively with porn and then fantasy and edging. Edging has really ruined my neural pathways and screwed up the wiring i believe. But anyhow, my advice would be to go real hard mode, and no cheating.
I know, easier said than done. But that is the way it has to be done. Hang in there buddy and wish me luck.