So this is not my first Journal however I have started it again as I think after listening to some of your advice and reading some other posts, that I need more of a plan.
I have listed the pros and cons and tried to get my reasons straight fro why I want to stop. I have also got a friend who I will check in with to say whether or not I have relapsed.
Why: For - Does feel good at the time, is hard to not obsess about it, flatline without it
Against - Feels shit afterwards, PIED, Wastes time that could be spent actually relaxing, reduces appreciation of reality, often ends up costing money, could get caught, concentration is poor, makes sex less enjoyable, damages relationship with girlfriend, risks sobriety (from other substances), reduces drive in gym, bad skin, feel deflated and shit about myself.
Typing this out it seems so obvious - but in my experience addiction does not involve logic - dealing with inbuilt mechanisms in the brain which have been rerouted via exaggerated external stimulus.
Will be checking in at least every two days with accountability partner and will try and check in here as much as possible.
Any tips or suggestions much appreciated. Wishing you all well on your journeys
I have listed the pros and cons and tried to get my reasons straight fro why I want to stop. I have also got a friend who I will check in with to say whether or not I have relapsed.
Why: For - Does feel good at the time, is hard to not obsess about it, flatline without it
Against - Feels shit afterwards, PIED, Wastes time that could be spent actually relaxing, reduces appreciation of reality, often ends up costing money, could get caught, concentration is poor, makes sex less enjoyable, damages relationship with girlfriend, risks sobriety (from other substances), reduces drive in gym, bad skin, feel deflated and shit about myself.
Typing this out it seems so obvious - but in my experience addiction does not involve logic - dealing with inbuilt mechanisms in the brain which have been rerouted via exaggerated external stimulus.
Will be checking in at least every two days with accountability partner and will try and check in here as much as possible.
Any tips or suggestions much appreciated. Wishing you all well on your journeys