I am definitely addicted to porn. I love seeing women in porn but don't want to be with one. I went through hocd, stressing I was lesbian to the point where it made me sick. I have accepted that I don't want to be with a woman but find then attractive in porn. I love just seeing what the guy does to a girl, etc. I am attractive and look similar to that girls. Anyways, I don't watch it daily anymore but I do on the weekends and can do it for hours sometimes. I want a real relationship with a guy and I think this is preventing me. I also do it when I am unhappy, anxious, sad, feel bad about being alone, etc. I also do it when I get dumped or feel rejected by people. Other times I just want to relax or I'm bored. I get triggered by seeing a bikini pic or something sexual on TV or anywhere. I want to quit for good so I can feel strong, have a real relationship with real affection, and to be productive not waste time online. I need a partner or buddy who can help me please. I would really appreciate it because I have tried for so long to do this alone and I fail after a week or two. I am serious about this and I was told by my friend whose in AA that you need people to get through addiction. If you'd like to help, please help!! Anytime I feel like relapsing, I want to talk to you. I want to talk about strategies, times of day, etc. Lets do this!