I need to stop

[Kidkokiri]

I need to stop masturbating to internet porn and my own thoughts of the porn. It is ruining my relationship and making me miserable. My entire libido has centered around this hardcore tickling fetish I?ve had since forever, and I have no interest in actual sex.

I feel like masturbating has dominated my life and become an actual addition, and it has held me back in life. This is the year I need to put it past me. I don?t know if I can keep doing this: it has really taken a toll on my sex life, and my girlfriend no longer is interested in sex because of the ED resulting from this problem. The sad part is that I honestly don?t blame her, and I?m starting to hate myself for it. I?ve tried rebooting and keeping it under control but it always ends the same way. It just feels so hopeless.

 

[worldlit4213]

Hey Kidkokiri! We all have suffered in one way or another from P. But now that you're here, you can start your journey to recovery and healing. Many of us have experienced the same kind of despair and pain you've described; optimistic and having success, relapsing, feeling guilty, trying again, and relapsing again. The cycle can be brutal. But this forum has been a huge help for me, and I'm on day 49 today partly because of it! In my opinion, if you're religious (or not), I recommend handing yourself over to Christ so He can heal you and purify your soul from P and other sexual vices.

We're all here to support and encourage you as you begin your journey!

 

[Struggling01]

Kidkokiri, you are not alone. I know exactly what you are going through. Tickling feet as always been my kink.

 

[Johnny Lea]

Hey kidkokiri! I have a tickle fetish as well and understand all the thoughts and emotions that you will have wrapped inside you on the matter. Your doing the right thing with stopping the porn it will definitely reinforce the tickle fetish and wire it much harder into you and affect your ability to have actual sex. I have been through exactly this and know what you feel.

The way to look at this fetish if you had it before discovering porn is that it’s inherently part of you and who you are. When I accepted this about myself and understood it my guilt and hatred towards it slowly disappeared and now I love it’s part of me and what I enjoy with a consensual partner. Because I know this will always be with me the need to watch tickle porn isn’t required anymore, which was my inspiration to start my reboot and regain my erections and sensitivity from too much PMO. I’ve had ups and downs so far on my journey but the one thing I’ve noticed is the more I abstain, the more I notice other things about women and feel more connection with them. Fingers crossed and if you ever need any talks or updates feel free to chat.

The same for you as well struggling01

We’re not trying to starve ourselves of this fetish or change it, we’re looking to manage it more and appreciate other things about our partners and connect with them.