Arcon
Member
Hi guys, I'm so happy I found this site, my experience was only a couple of nights ago, so the wounds are still fresh.
Basically I've had issues with finding a partner, mainly due to my confidence and workload, but in the 8 years since I had a sexual encounter I have been M'ing several times a week, obviously using P, which has gone from a few years of getting a picture of nice girl in Playboy type pose, a couple of minutes, job done, thirst quenched, get on with my day twice a week... to, in the last couple of years progressing to an hour or more of edging to varying levels of Hard P several times a week.
Anyway, I lovely girl took it up on herself to approach me and start a relationship, we like each other, I'm incredibly attracted to her, she has a the most perfect body, and after a few weeks of talking, hugging and kissing, we had sex... well, she did at least. I was very erect and buzzing to begin with, but I noticed that I was beginning to lose my erection a few minutes in and the sensation of entering her was OK at best, not at all as pleasurable as I remember. I moved her in to several positions, but eventually it got to the point where i was squeezing the base to keep enough of an erection to enter her, until I finally gave up and apologized... I said "I'm sorry, it's been a long time" and she sighed, but hugged me and rubbed my chest, which was nice to be honest, at least she didn't walk out lol!
About 20 minutes later she begin to touch me again and I became erect again, so she guided me back in, but it was the same, so I ended up faking an O, then going to the bathroom to "Pretend wash-up". I feel like a complete failure, It just amazes me how I can be so aroused and in need of release by way of M, but when I get the real thing (The thing I've been fantasizing about for nearly a decade) It's almost numb.
I've already figured my use of P, performance Anxiety, and maybe the 3 beers I had for dutch courage have led to this, but I feel I need to talk about it with other people, and perhaps map my (Hopeful) recovery.
Any advice or a pat on the shoulder would be good, and I hope you guys can help, and maybe in time I can pass on what knowledge I amass too
Basically I've had issues with finding a partner, mainly due to my confidence and workload, but in the 8 years since I had a sexual encounter I have been M'ing several times a week, obviously using P, which has gone from a few years of getting a picture of nice girl in Playboy type pose, a couple of minutes, job done, thirst quenched, get on with my day twice a week... to, in the last couple of years progressing to an hour or more of edging to varying levels of Hard P several times a week.
Anyway, I lovely girl took it up on herself to approach me and start a relationship, we like each other, I'm incredibly attracted to her, she has a the most perfect body, and after a few weeks of talking, hugging and kissing, we had sex... well, she did at least. I was very erect and buzzing to begin with, but I noticed that I was beginning to lose my erection a few minutes in and the sensation of entering her was OK at best, not at all as pleasurable as I remember. I moved her in to several positions, but eventually it got to the point where i was squeezing the base to keep enough of an erection to enter her, until I finally gave up and apologized... I said "I'm sorry, it's been a long time" and she sighed, but hugged me and rubbed my chest, which was nice to be honest, at least she didn't walk out lol!
About 20 minutes later she begin to touch me again and I became erect again, so she guided me back in, but it was the same, so I ended up faking an O, then going to the bathroom to "Pretend wash-up". I feel like a complete failure, It just amazes me how I can be so aroused and in need of release by way of M, but when I get the real thing (The thing I've been fantasizing about for nearly a decade) It's almost numb.
I've already figured my use of P, performance Anxiety, and maybe the 3 beers I had for dutch courage have led to this, but I feel I need to talk about it with other people, and perhaps map my (Hopeful) recovery.
Any advice or a pat on the shoulder would be good, and I hope you guys can help, and maybe in time I can pass on what knowledge I amass too
