cakecrocodileshrimp
Member
Hi everyone.
I have made this account because I have decided once and for all it's time to put my porn addiction to death. It began in 1999 just before my 13th birthday, when just out of curiousity I went onto my parents computer and opened up Altavista (yes I'm old) to find pictures of boobs. I recently turned 34, and barely a day goes by when I don't wish I could go back in time and undo my decision that day.
Long story short, an addiction began that day that has more or less controlled my life non stop for the last 22 years. Any and all attempts to fight it were completely unsuccessful, and I was left feeling powerless and ashamed. What changed was in 2015 I found on Youtube the 'Your Brain on Porn' video by Gary Wilson. It absolutely blew me away to understand the science of why porn was so infernally hard to quit, and it was also shocking to me to discover all of the incredible harm porn causes to people who use it. I have had significant social anxiety (which has hindered my career and social life) and low-level depression (just a 'meh' view of life) for as long as I can remember...and was shocked to discover that both of these things are a symptom of porn use! I fought even harder to end my addiction, and armed with the new resources I was able to make at least some progress; my porn usage has dropped from several times a day to several times a week, and the length of each session has dropped considerably too. For me this was a monumental achievement, but its not enough. Pornography is poison, I don't want it less I want it gone.
So, that's why I'm here now. I figured I had to change something if I wanted to take that final step in killing my addiction once and for all. I want to see what life looks like without this disgusting habit holding me down, and I think that this is the time that I am finally going to see that happen. I am sad that I wasted the best years of my life on life-destroying garbage, but I'm not going to let that stop me from being the best I can be in the future.
I have made this account because I have decided once and for all it's time to put my porn addiction to death. It began in 1999 just before my 13th birthday, when just out of curiousity I went onto my parents computer and opened up Altavista (yes I'm old) to find pictures of boobs. I recently turned 34, and barely a day goes by when I don't wish I could go back in time and undo my decision that day.
Long story short, an addiction began that day that has more or less controlled my life non stop for the last 22 years. Any and all attempts to fight it were completely unsuccessful, and I was left feeling powerless and ashamed. What changed was in 2015 I found on Youtube the 'Your Brain on Porn' video by Gary Wilson. It absolutely blew me away to understand the science of why porn was so infernally hard to quit, and it was also shocking to me to discover all of the incredible harm porn causes to people who use it. I have had significant social anxiety (which has hindered my career and social life) and low-level depression (just a 'meh' view of life) for as long as I can remember...and was shocked to discover that both of these things are a symptom of porn use! I fought even harder to end my addiction, and armed with the new resources I was able to make at least some progress; my porn usage has dropped from several times a day to several times a week, and the length of each session has dropped considerably too. For me this was a monumental achievement, but its not enough. Pornography is poison, I don't want it less I want it gone.
So, that's why I'm here now. I figured I had to change something if I wanted to take that final step in killing my addiction once and for all. I want to see what life looks like without this disgusting habit holding me down, and I think that this is the time that I am finally going to see that happen. I am sad that I wasted the best years of my life on life-destroying garbage, but I'm not going to let that stop me from being the best I can be in the future.