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dame2002
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Hello. My name is Damian, turning 19 in just two months and usually I would try to refrain from seeking help at times but I feel that this problem is starting to get a little out of control and I feel that I need some helpful advice in order to push through.
First things first, I have Asperger's and I have Asthma. I come from a family that tends to be negative at times to the point where my mother literally had to take me away from my father at a young age due to his negligence and his stupidity.
I first discovered porn from DVDs that my father had in his little office area in the living room at a very young age. It only got worse from there as one day I accidentally saw an explicit video play on the TV when I was in the living room. Never did I expect that those moments and many more would lead up to the events that are occurring in my life.
Now, my situation deteriorated so badly that I had to dropout of my first semester of college due to the fact that I ended up looking at nudity and masturbating to it 1-2 daily. At it's worst, I would masturbate 2-3 a day for no particular reason. All in all, it just caused me to have a lower self-esteem than usual considering that I was physically active.
Sometimes, I want to just give up but I really want to uphold the goals that I had in mind, which one of them was to be a programmer. I still want to but at times I would end up relapsing because I would overthink it too much.
Through each relapse, I learned what works for me below:
- Cold Showers
- Playing video games
- Reading a book
- Listening to music
- Deep breaths
- Getting a lot of sleep(when I do relapse, I tend to get less sleep)
- Exercising & Stretching
I am just going to take this one day at a time. If there are any other suggestions/ways to combat any urges, please tell me! I want to have a wide range of things to do so that I won't panic or feel unprepared.
First things first, I have Asperger's and I have Asthma. I come from a family that tends to be negative at times to the point where my mother literally had to take me away from my father at a young age due to his negligence and his stupidity.
I first discovered porn from DVDs that my father had in his little office area in the living room at a very young age. It only got worse from there as one day I accidentally saw an explicit video play on the TV when I was in the living room. Never did I expect that those moments and many more would lead up to the events that are occurring in my life.
Now, my situation deteriorated so badly that I had to dropout of my first semester of college due to the fact that I ended up looking at nudity and masturbating to it 1-2 daily. At it's worst, I would masturbate 2-3 a day for no particular reason. All in all, it just caused me to have a lower self-esteem than usual considering that I was physically active.
Sometimes, I want to just give up but I really want to uphold the goals that I had in mind, which one of them was to be a programmer. I still want to but at times I would end up relapsing because I would overthink it too much.
Through each relapse, I learned what works for me below:
- Cold Showers
- Playing video games
- Reading a book
- Listening to music
- Deep breaths
- Getting a lot of sleep(when I do relapse, I tend to get less sleep)
- Exercising & Stretching
I am just going to take this one day at a time. If there are any other suggestions/ways to combat any urges, please tell me! I want to have a wide range of things to do so that I won't panic or feel unprepared.