karmagotme
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Helloooo RN and Thankyou for this GREAT FORUM
please excuse my English
Story time? ill try to keep it as short as possible and if anyone who read this has gone thro the same thing please comment.
I?m 23 - Single ATM
Same as everyone else i started the Porn journey when i was 10 and at the age of 12 I started PMOing occasionally whenever i got a chance, if its a naked women pictures or poor quality Porn videos, anything that i could get a hold of id use to M, i was horney all time throughout my teens and my Erections were not only rock solid but scary to the women i?ve been with.
i was sexually active at the age of 14 so i wasn?t hooked with porn as before, sex was a regular thing for 14 to 18 everything was cool and my porn usage was low, i used to always complain about my random boners not going down haha ironic. anyways after my last breakup at 18 i got back to PMO with force, i was doing it from 18 till 6 days ago so nearly 5 years of consistent PMoing daily for as long as i can remember i?ve probably gone only 2 weeks without Porn but i?d mastrubate instead.
i used to notice weak erections and the missing of morning/spontaneous/nocturnal erections, but never paid much attention always blamed it on stress or bozz.
i also realised that through out my PMO i slightly lost interest in actual intimate sex and would prefer the screen instead. it was until 2 months ago where i hit tyr biggest wall of my life after i PMOd with a semi soft erection, i got into a flatline and it was the worse thing that has ever happened to me considering that i?ve been thro a lot of things in my life, this was by far the worse.
I O?d and all of the sudden i lost interest in everything, i felt like i was just a body with no soul at all, in these 2 months i wasn?t able to establish any connection with anymore, i?d rather stay by myself and not talk to anyone, social anxiety, insomnia, fatigued and the big thing, Forced erections even with porn, i was so fucking scared to the point where i?d watch porn not for pleasure but just to test if i can get an erections and this was just horrible, i immediately went to the doc and ran blood test and everything as with everybody was fine, hormonal check and everything. i was depressed suicidal and lifeless like my penis.
It wasn?t until 6 days ago that i discovered this Forum and Gabe?s videos that eveything made sense, the funny thing is that i never linked any of my symptoms to Myporn addiction it was out of the picture. when i read the stories it wasn?t that difficult for me to connect the dots and i swore to never go back to porn again, it has been 6 days since i decided to Stop, and i dont have many options but to wait and see what happens, i believe i wont relaps as relapsing means watching porn to get an semi-half dead erection and i wouldn?t wanna do that anyway. however some of my symptoms are a bit weird and even when i read some of the stories i didn?t come across some people with the same problem
since 2 months my penis in its flaccid statr would be much much smaller than it used to. it has lost its sensation, and i wouldn?t get an erection just by myself or with imagination, and also my balls seem to be shrunk during the day and saggy/ low hanging empty during the night. i dont know if thats related to my problem or not
anyways i wanted to post this here and keep updating to see it that will actually work, and if i see improvements believe me anyone else will see improvements as i believe my case is just so severe and my Penis is the deadest ever.
Thank you all and i will keep this updated regularly.
please excuse my English
Story time? ill try to keep it as short as possible and if anyone who read this has gone thro the same thing please comment.
I?m 23 - Single ATM
Same as everyone else i started the Porn journey when i was 10 and at the age of 12 I started PMOing occasionally whenever i got a chance, if its a naked women pictures or poor quality Porn videos, anything that i could get a hold of id use to M, i was horney all time throughout my teens and my Erections were not only rock solid but scary to the women i?ve been with.
i was sexually active at the age of 14 so i wasn?t hooked with porn as before, sex was a regular thing for 14 to 18 everything was cool and my porn usage was low, i used to always complain about my random boners not going down haha ironic. anyways after my last breakup at 18 i got back to PMO with force, i was doing it from 18 till 6 days ago so nearly 5 years of consistent PMoing daily for as long as i can remember i?ve probably gone only 2 weeks without Porn but i?d mastrubate instead.
i used to notice weak erections and the missing of morning/spontaneous/nocturnal erections, but never paid much attention always blamed it on stress or bozz.
i also realised that through out my PMO i slightly lost interest in actual intimate sex and would prefer the screen instead. it was until 2 months ago where i hit tyr biggest wall of my life after i PMOd with a semi soft erection, i got into a flatline and it was the worse thing that has ever happened to me considering that i?ve been thro a lot of things in my life, this was by far the worse.
I O?d and all of the sudden i lost interest in everything, i felt like i was just a body with no soul at all, in these 2 months i wasn?t able to establish any connection with anymore, i?d rather stay by myself and not talk to anyone, social anxiety, insomnia, fatigued and the big thing, Forced erections even with porn, i was so fucking scared to the point where i?d watch porn not for pleasure but just to test if i can get an erections and this was just horrible, i immediately went to the doc and ran blood test and everything as with everybody was fine, hormonal check and everything. i was depressed suicidal and lifeless like my penis.
It wasn?t until 6 days ago that i discovered this Forum and Gabe?s videos that eveything made sense, the funny thing is that i never linked any of my symptoms to Myporn addiction it was out of the picture. when i read the stories it wasn?t that difficult for me to connect the dots and i swore to never go back to porn again, it has been 6 days since i decided to Stop, and i dont have many options but to wait and see what happens, i believe i wont relaps as relapsing means watching porn to get an semi-half dead erection and i wouldn?t wanna do that anyway. however some of my symptoms are a bit weird and even when i read some of the stories i didn?t come across some people with the same problem
since 2 months my penis in its flaccid statr would be much much smaller than it used to. it has lost its sensation, and i wouldn?t get an erection just by myself or with imagination, and also my balls seem to be shrunk during the day and saggy/ low hanging empty during the night. i dont know if thats related to my problem or not
anyways i wanted to post this here and keep updating to see it that will actually work, and if i see improvements believe me anyone else will see improvements as i believe my case is just so severe and my Penis is the deadest ever.
Thank you all and i will keep this updated regularly.