AntonyRebooter
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Hello, RN !!! Hello, Gaben !!! Hello rebooters !!! My name is Anthony, I'm from Russia . 23 y.o.
I've started masturbating at the age 9
Softcore porn at the age 10-11
High-speed internet porn at the age 13
I started the reboot process 3 months ago and experienced THE MOST hellish withdrawals:
-I have severe anxiety / social anxiety (I can't look at anyone, I can't talk to anyone)
- Severe OCD (thoughts of various perversions beat my tired brain.
during my time in addiction, I reviewed a lot of different stuff (softcore,hardcore,cartoon, hentai , shemale stuff, incest and so on) but I have OCD on things I've never looked at!!!)
- terrible dreams
- huge (very huge) unnatural lust (sometimes I can't even look at elderly women, children, relatives, and sometimes even animals and men without flashes of lust. When the symptoms on top (almost all the time), I see even fully clothed women as sexual objects and experience severe torment
- Severe depression
- Suicidal thoughts
- Brain fog/stupidness to the max
- anxiety that makes my hands shake and I sweat
- salivation when I see or hear triggers words related to the genitals
- I felt really bad every time I listened to music
-felt REALLY bad after wet dreams
- sweating
- whole body hurts
- blurred vision
Anyone please tell me, WHAT THE HELL?
Why this is so hellish???
3 months free from PMO now
!!!
I have days when I am completely free from this , but it is very rare(a couple of times a month)and I call it " x-day." faith in God and Jesus(I'm a Christian) ,x-days and the Gabe's videos are the best motivation for me to keep going, but this is REAL HELL!
in general, I feel better than in the first month, but it is still incredibly difficult
someone please tell me, have you ever experienced anything like this?
I've started masturbating at the age 9
Softcore porn at the age 10-11
High-speed internet porn at the age 13
I started the reboot process 3 months ago and experienced THE MOST hellish withdrawals:
-I have severe anxiety / social anxiety (I can't look at anyone, I can't talk to anyone)
- Severe OCD (thoughts of various perversions beat my tired brain.
during my time in addiction, I reviewed a lot of different stuff (softcore,hardcore,cartoon, hentai , shemale stuff, incest and so on) but I have OCD on things I've never looked at!!!)
- terrible dreams
- huge (very huge) unnatural lust (sometimes I can't even look at elderly women, children, relatives, and sometimes even animals and men without flashes of lust. When the symptoms on top (almost all the time), I see even fully clothed women as sexual objects and experience severe torment
- Severe depression
- Suicidal thoughts
- Brain fog/stupidness to the max
- anxiety that makes my hands shake and I sweat
- salivation when I see or hear triggers words related to the genitals
- I felt really bad every time I listened to music
-felt REALLY bad after wet dreams
- sweating
- whole body hurts
- blurred vision
Anyone please tell me, WHAT THE HELL?
Why this is so hellish???
3 months free from PMO now
!!!
I have days when I am completely free from this , but it is very rare(a couple of times a month)and I call it " x-day." faith in God and Jesus(I'm a Christian) ,x-days and the Gabe's videos are the best motivation for me to keep going, but this is REAL HELL!
in general, I feel better than in the first month, but it is still incredibly difficult
someone please tell me, have you ever experienced anything like this?
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