what's real life like!

biff88mph

biff88mph

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I'm 27 and have been living in the porn shell since I was around 18 and went to live in Vancouver Canada for a couple of years. I ended up taking a lot of drugs, one of which being method amphetamines which lead to me watching porn on on old videos and DVDs which a neighbour in the building had boxes off, I would sit for hours and hours watching and masturbating. I remember the very 1st trigger I had over there was an advertisement for an exercise machine that featured 2 women in Lycra, I sat for many hours changing channels to find the ad like a mentalist. This was the 2nd year living in vancouver, i had been normal, going out and meeting women and having sex without issue in the previous year before taking drugs. This whole period in my life set me up for years of masturbation addiction and pied. I returned home to ireland and resumed a 'life' without drugs except porn which I consider a drug of sorts. I have always experienced e.d and have only had 1 successful intercourse experience since, with many awkward situations in between! I've given up trying with women and distance myself from opportunities that arise from time to time, masturbating about what might have happened instead.
So anyway, I don't want to make this too long, but I'm going to have a serious attempt at quitting porn and masturbation starting today. I just want to live a normal life and be able to maintain a sexual relationship with a woman. I also race motorcycles and believe that quitting this addiction would help my concentration for that, even having to work on my bike I can't be bothered to do half the time which I think is another consequence. Before the racing commences next spring I hope I'm a different person!
I wish everybody good luck to achieve whatever it is your wanting out of your reboot. Thanks for reading
 
biff88mph

biff88mph

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Cheers man, I find that days when I'm hungover are the worst, use it as a kind of pain relief. Also nights when I go to bed not tired, ive always had an active imagination which goes into overdrive at these times, along with quite boring days. I used to exercise regularly which I've abandoned the past few months so getting back to that along with a lot of willpower should help, especially during winter months here with the crap weather we get. I can't get a counter bar yet as I'm using a tablet(bad thing to have) which I don't know how left click on
 
biff88mph

biff88mph

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Day 1, all good so far, out and about all day and now play Xbox for couple hours then listen to music in bed. Been here plenty of times before though so ain't much to say really
 
biff88mph

biff88mph

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Days 2+3, working both these days and no real issues. Working with good looking girl with large breasts and friendly personality+on a few occasions she said a couple of dirty things which set my brain in motion but I was able to quickly dismiss it. Few spontaneous erections also which I avoided messing with too much lol. Seen quite a few attractive girls down the street as well which was turning my head but I didn't do my usual filing away for later carry on. Listening to music in bed to occupy my mind. Still early days
 
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