The Journey to the top

Zakes

Member
[Day 1]
[Trigger Warning]

It's interesting that every time I get back on here I'm a little older but the issues still persist.

I'm physically fit good looking and I haven't had a proper girlfriend in god knows how long. To be honest how could I have a girlfriend when all my efforts have been spent pursuing transsexual women. Like a ball and chain this transsexual addiction has clinged to me. I've spent so much money on the countless visits to escorts. I've also spent so much time that could have been invested in myself on pursuing transsexual women, grindr, tinder, mystranssexualdate, you name it, I've been cruizing those sites searching for some transsexuals.

I'll be honest some of these trans women are really nice people and I pretend to play the role, of someone, who isn't a sexual predator, someone who actually cares, but deep down, I just want to get her naked so I can suck her, cock, penetrate her and have her penetrate me.

At this point, I'm not really certain if I'm actually attracted transsexuals and I want to be with one or if it's just a fetish. I've been doing this for so long I honestly feel like I've slept with more trans woman than cis women. Always creeping around in the dead of the night. Promising to be something I'm not, knowing I'll disappear after a few encounters.

What I want out of this is to be a genuine and authentic person, I need take a step back from it and stop feeding my thirst, I need to find out what I can achieve if I stop distracting myself with trans women, anime, porn and getting wasted.

Yeah, it's a mouthful, but lets make magic happen, time for me to start living a shameless life.
 

Dannybou

Active Member
You can do it man. Hopefully staying off the porn for a few months will give you more clarity on who you're attracted to.

I've noticed myself slowly going down this path too. I haven't dated a girl in 2 years partially due to my porn habit. I started with futa porn, moved on to real tranny porn and paying for a transgirls onlyfans. I had started browsing trans escort sites before listening to the your brain on porn audiobook and realizing how much porn is fucking with sexual identity.

The only thing we can do is to try again and hope for a better future, I guess.
 

Zakes

Member
You can do it man. Hopefully staying off the porn for a few months will give you more clarity on who you're attracted to.

I've noticed myself slowly going down this path too. I haven't dated a girl in 2 years partially due to my porn habit. I started with futa porn, moved on to real tranny porn and paying for a transgirls onlyfans. I had started browsing trans escort sites before listening to the your brain on porn audiobook and realizing how much porn is fucking with sexual identity.

The only thing we can do is to try again and hope for a better future, I guess.
Yeah, bro. Thanks for the support, it will take time to see who I really am. I've been doing this for years and I feel finally ready to let it go. I would agree though, that at this point I'm not ready to date anyone.
 
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