Accountability

[Arthur Marston]

Hello all, some of you may have read my entry under the "Success Stories" section of the RebootNation forum. That was mainly about how I realized that I needed to change my way of life so that I could move towards a porn-free life. That encompassed steps in the right direction. However, I have recently hit hard times in my recovery. I have been acting out AKA relapsing more and more recently, sometimes for days in a row for hours each time. I have done this by actively looking for ways past my internet filtering software in a sort of "trance-like" state. I want to start writing in this forum every day to keep myself accountable. Any experience, strength, hope, and suggestions are welcome. We are all combatting this problem together, and it is high time I have realized that and asked for help again. Many thanks in advance.

 

[Fappy]

I want to start writing in this forum every day to keep myself accountable

So do it!
That trance like state that you mentioned, thats terrifying. I have expereinced that many times, youre possessed by the demon-slut of PMO and you sit there bleary eyed and all drunk on dopamine (or what little of it youve got left), finding ways around the fickle filters. Its really like someone else is doing it and youre watching yourself do it. basically, when theres a will to fap, theres a way.
while the filtering software is a good idea, be honest, youre only going to find a way around it - and its going to be a whoooole lot worse.
at what times of day do you usually have the urge to fap? or in waht situations, what triggers it?